@cmonkey
fair enough, it is a faith game, but it feels so surreal sometimes. Actually, I am looking forward to get myself out of this current state of life, and start working on the land in Hungary (basically do anything else, something real), get myself out of this daily boring rhythm of going to work, and then browsing too much because I basically want to be somewhere else, i clearly have reached a dead-end in this working part of my life. Yes, it brings a lot of money, but it is not worth it anymore. Despite that I have seen a lot of beauty, I probably have also seen too much of the "bad" side of life while traveling around the world, the waste, the poverty, the ugliness that mankind leaves behind where ever he goes. Currently I am in a city of 20M people (of which many poor), which is expected to grow to 40M people in 20 years time, it is ugly, polluted, it is crazy how people are here living together like rats. You know, this is unsustainable, you feel it, you see it, and it makes you sad. I need a drink

and get the hell out of here, see some beauty and fool myself that this does not exist....and also stop reading those web-sites, may be they are right, but I probably do not want to know (anymore). The age of Information has its bad side as well
