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AUGUST 2015
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TOTAL SPENDING: $2,583
NORMAL SPENDING: $1,297
- * Home - $637
* Transportation - $229
* Clothes - $223
* Food - $179
* Dating - $92
* Entertainment / Hobbies - $87
VAN SPENDING: $1,286
- * Electrical System components - $760
* Gas for 2,000 mile trip - $350
* Insurance - $161
YEARLY GOAL PRORESS
I need up update my yearly goals to account for the van-building. Here are the charts with the original targets.

I’ve spent around $11k on the van, conversion, gas, etc. So if I hadn’t been doing this, I would be very close to the target.

The post-tax dividends are rolling in well. August was my biggest month ever: $654!! WOOO!!!!

Net worth was flat over the last few months. This year, I’ve saved $11k less than originally planned due to the van purchase and conversion. My investment performance ytd is a loss of $6k (that’s the $5k dividends minus $11k of price decreases). These decreasing prices could work out very well for me. I have $35k of cash sitting in my 401k, and when I sell my house I will have $40k that I want to buy stocks with.
VAN TEST RUN
The stars aligned pretty well for a trip to where my family live – out near the Rocky Mountains. I’ve been planning to use a family member’s basement to store my “stuff” that I won’t be bringing along in the van with me but that I don’t want to get rid of. I had these things sorted and set aside, and then this month, co-workers asked me to go along to that same city for work. Now I could load all the stuff in my van and drive out there and let my employer pay for the gas!
I was a little nervous about a trip of this length and up into the mountains – it would be MUCH more than I’ve driven the van so far. All the driving went well. No problems, and the locker and tires worked great up in the mountains.
I went camping up in the mountains the weekends before and after working. My brother went with me both times. Most of my other immediate family came up for part of the first weekend and that was very nice. It was great spending this kind of time with my brother. We had plenty of time to relax and bond and have some very good conversations. He has also gotten into much better shape over the last year so we were able to go on a challenging hike.
Here’s the van all ready to go for the first weekend:
Camping spot, first weekend:
Camping spot, first weekend (you can see the van on the right)
WHAT DOES IT MEAN!?
We camped right by here (off the road to the left) the 2nd weekend.
At the top of the hike. The air was smoky from fires out west.
The van worked great. There was nothing significant that I need to change. I just need to press on with the conversion. I liked the camping trips a lot. I can see myself doing that a lot, and I can see myself spending significant chunks of time out at one spot. I slept pretty well in the van (the bed is a memory foam mattress and the material is more comfortable than the bed in my house)
WOMEN AND RELATIONSHIPS
FINDING THE KIND OF WOMEN I WANT
When I had a girlfriend before that was more of what I’d describe as a “normal” woman, in that she had the normal spending desires and placed a very high value on established norms, she told me a few times: “You might not ever find the kind of woman you want – they barely even exist”. I worried that she may be right.
I use Tinder (It’s a phone app for meeting people to date or have sex with or whatever. Each person has a very simple profile with 5 or less pictures and some very short text that you can read). I changed my profile a few months ago. In the text part, I made the first line a declaration that I’m building a van to live in and go on adventures. I switched all my pictures to ones where I was outside, with many of them in mountains and other interesting places. This method of advertising part of my uniqueness worked quite well. I was getting about the same amount of matches as before - but these matches are impressed by my uniqueness rather than confused or put off. This gives me new confidence in being able to find the kind of women that I want. Or, woman(!)
CURRENT RELATIONSHIP -- COULD MAKE LEAVING TAKE A LOT MORE
In May through July, I kept myself very busy building the van. I took two weeks off from work in that period to work on the van, and during those weeks I was talking on Tinder here and there, mainly just for some social interaction. There was one woman I went out with during that time that I really like. I’ve been seeing her for a couple months now.
The fact that I’m going to be leaving St Louis – and maybe fairly soon – makes this feel a bit unique. I assumed early on that she would have a low ceiling in how emotionally involved she’d get with me. She assumed and even decided that too. But it didn’t happen, and we’ve been spending a lot of time together. I’ve been surprised with both how well we match up (on many many things – religion, kids, travel/adventure, simplicity, positivity, and others) and how well we’ve been getting along.
She’s told me that she sometimes finds herself worrying/sad about me leaving in the future. There was one night (before I was leaving for 2.5-3 weeks to go to Colorado, sort of a symbolic time I guess) that I was freaking out a bit about leaving and living in a van. Freaking out because I expect that for the time I’m living out of it, I won’t establish any kind of serious romantic relationships. As I’ve mentioned before, I’m at a point in my life where I feel I should be having more serious relationships; I’ve incorporated this in my yearly goals for the last couple years. Living in the van will likely put a pause on that. The night I was ‘freaking out’, I was asking myself if I was sure I wanted to do it (I still am sure I want to), and I was realizing that if I keep seeing this woman and getting more and more attached, the ‘leaving’ could take a lot more courage than I previously expected.
In reality, the “leaving” will likely happen in phases – not at one moment. And if I keep seeing her, it will delay those phases. (and already has, which I am ok with)
The good news here is that:
- I can find the kind of women I want
- One of my goals related to having serious relationships is to improve my ability and openness to giving my love to someone fully without worrying about the future or them reciprocating in the exact same way or whatever else. This is a great time to try to do it
- She is a teacher, so she has the summers off. If we’re still interested in each other next summer, she could come along with me. We’ve talked about it a bit and she’s really into it – and not just in a “yeah that sounds cool way”, but much more certain that she would love to. She was already going on camping road trips during the summers. She came with me to Shawnee National Forest over the entire Labor Day weekend and we had a great time – even while it was VERY hot and humid
- Wonderful sex!
MEETUP WITH CMONKEY
Just a few days ago (in September) I was on a work trip near where cmonkey lives, so I met up with him and his wife for a chat. I enjoyed it a lot. We spoke about many different things - Investing, 401k/ira/early distribution methods, gardening, chickens, transportation, podcasts, and a bunch of other things I can’t remember right now. They both seem like great people – calm, thoughtful, and ones who can get along very well with nature.