Alright! I am back! Minus the existential crisis! YEAAAHHH!
But seriously, for the last couple months I have been really losing my sense of self and been a loss of what to do with my life. I didn't have a real plan on what to do with my life between now and what I want out of my life; my writing productivity had went to shit; most social life was there but had a colour of grayness like the Turku Winter*.
But March has arrived; the birds are coming out as the snow melts away, the last breaths of winter of being taken as the opening yawns of spring are arriving. Words flow freely from hand to the keyboard to screen, and I am beginning to enjoy life, once again with taking pleasure in every event I hang out with my new found friends and old friends from last semesters. Today I have been running/walking and doing kettlebell swings to work on my cardio.
I have begun planning for my final year of college, where I will graduated at ripe old age of 21!
So the planning stages of my final year are ahead.
I have three main choices between my decide between, all of which accomplish my primary objectives:
1) Get back to Europe.
2) Not Be Unemployed
3) Not going into more debt: $4,000 in student loans is $4,000 too many.
My three choices (or plans):
1) Asks if professors know anyone who specializes in geopolitics. The reason for this is that my one of my former professors knows someone from Slovenia who teaches in geography and did a political geography lecture last year. I am going to see if I can work that connection out to my advantage.
2) Find a job overseas. It recently dawned on me certain countries in Europe i.e. Norway and Scotland, have oil. A nearby city (HOUSTON) has lots of oil companies. Some of these companies work oveseas.
I am an idiot for realizing this before. And yes, I realize isn't exactly pro-environment route but fuck it someone has to do it.
3) Graduate program in the states and offers me a graduate assistant and focuses on human geography. I have realized that I am a human geographer, not a physical one. I may be knowledgeable to some physical geography but all that information seeks to help my main interest and love: humans and their interaction with natural environment. So that being said I am looking programs focusing on human geography that will be offering graduate assistant work and pay, and allow me to travel to Europe for research and among other things.
So yes, those are my three options or plans that I have.
*Which was one of the worst this year; a few hours of sunlight per month, lots of rains with snow that quickly melted and froze over causing inch thick pieces of black ice. Honestly, if I can survive this Winter I feel like I can survive any.
**Objectives:
The reasoning for these objectives are these: I am still aiming for ERE by 30, which gives me nine years since graduating college to save enough money, which I think is possible considering the past few months I have been living less than minimum wage, in Finland, an expensive country to live in, all the while I have been travelling all over the Baltic from Stockholm to Riga to Tallinn to St. Petersburg. Those number includes the support I will receive from my parents these last couple of months.
And about the first objective:
Why specifically do I want to live in Europe:
I feel in love with continent as a whole. It is much different from America; it feels more connected to the world (which goes back to the Heartland Theory of Geopolitics) than US. I feel the effects and pulse of the world that I do back home much more and intimately. And not only that, but the lifestyle here is more...active than the United States. Maybe it is because my home university is a sleepy town in comparison to here but I feel like I have a social life here more than I ever had in the United States. I have funny stories to tell about me having to do yet another hour's worth of walking home on Christmas Eve. I have meet Estonian programmers who are friends with self-made millionaires back in Thailand and befriended them.
And I have fallen head over girls more often than I did back in the states. Maybe it is because I am not hung up over one girl, maybe it is because of my more active social life. But this falling head over heels phase is part of something larger.
I love people. I enjoyed hanging out in bars with my friends, I enjoy talking to new people when I am drinking (the only way I can have long conversation with a Fin beyond "Moi/Hei"; which I find annoying about Finnish culture in general. Love Finns nonetheless <3). I miss the company of people after a while.
I feel Extroverted, actually.
Which brings me to my final point.
I feel like I beginning to finally have a grasp on who I truly am in a way. Either that or I am changing yet again.
Anyways.
Moi, Moi!
Catch you later!