Smelly Swiss Dilettante

[Jean]

Crazy shit, i have enough ember this morning to grill a cervelas for breakfast. I think i will have to use my water to estinguish them.
Also , I think that two of the most widely shuned behavior are violence and lie.
There are very good reason for that.
Violence and lie make individualist societies very unconfortable.
I've traveled to many places, and there I observed a direct correlation beetween affluence and intolerance to violence and lies.
We punish violence with some codified exceptions.
On the other hand we tolerate lie with some codified exceptions.
That leads to some tolerance for violence outside the codified exceptions, whe the recuever of the violence is percieved to having been getting away with lie by staying out of the codified exceptions. (I' refering to the murder mentioned on @violet journal).
This is bad. It leads to chaos.
Some also tolerate a lot of lies from the violence monopoly now.
I think this is bad too.
I wonder what a society where lies are treated like violence (banned, with some exceptions) would look like.
Also, one third thing that tend to be frowned upon is non comformity.
I think it is used as a proxy for not lie and not being violent to the ingroup (the one that expect us to conform.
This is a bad proxy, and society that still have it tend to suck.
Also i realised that one of the attraction of video games, is that i dont feel the urge to share my thought about them.
I like sharing my thoughts, but I mostly enjoy it 1 on 1.
1 on 1 allows for very efficient communication, because you can adapt the way you talk to what the other knows.
While writing or talkibg to a camera, many recuever will misunderstand you. That makes it less satisfying. That'd why ere fest were so nice. I was surrounded with people who could understand what i was saying.
In my day to day life, i only have a few friend like that. Most notably, my gf doesnt understand most of my thought. This is a big frustration. There are only a few subject i can share my thought on with her.
I think that's why i enjoy sharing my music or some kind of poetr to larger audiences. It is much easier to notice one person whoy enjoyed your music, than one person (within a large audience) who understood what you meant.

[Jean]

I love switzerland.
I got pulled ofo half sleep by 3 gunshot at 0500. I called the police to notify them,because it coukd be poachers. It was a very relaxed call, despite me saying i slept in tge forest. Then i noticed the embers and grilled sausage. Then i thought there are way too much embers. The fire was coaling! The soil was burning too. There was a farm with light half a click away. I walked into the yard, and saw a door with light. I knocked on the door. There was a woman. I explained her i made a fire yesterday and didnt feel safe leavibg it like that, and needed water. She just gave me a bucket. I extinguished my fire, brought back the bucket and filled my bottles. End of story.
There are so many places where it could have lead to conplications, but here its all just fine.

[NewBlood]

awesome news on all fronts, Jean! Congrats!

[guitarplayer]

Substitute teaching for special needs kids.
They don't have enough, so very low barrier of entry, and i know someone who works there.
That also sound like a perfect job for @guitarplayer if he was fluent in french and german

For sure, I have thought about it! It would be like pulling together many of my experiences from the last one or two decades of life. And I think I could get training to become a Special Education Needs (SEN) teacher here where I am and be paid to get it. No surprise that there is shortage of SEN teachers, it is a very complex job. Though I am not sure you are right about the entry barrier as the route to become one is rather long; to my knowledge one first becomes a teacher and then get the SEN status on top of the teaching status. On the other hand, I think becoming a classroom assistant in the SEN area should have a low entry threshold, but there there is probably also more supply of people willing to do it.

For doing it in Switzerland, yes the language would be a barrier. I could try to blitz German, I used to converse in it after my year in Austria. But also, international schools also need SEN teachers.

I have so much romanticism attached to the idea of working wineyards, even though the reality of it might be you just ending up picking grapes with a bunch of foreigners. Happy it found you,hope you will have good weather (if it is just now - it looks like summer your place)!

[Jean]

It will be placing the branches back in the wiring for the next two weeks. We have very warm weather now, i didn't feel cold this night.
Working wineyards can be nice, or it can be horrible depending where you are.
Harvesting is usually pourly paid, because it attracts foreigners and people who do it for leisure. It is a bit the same problem as lumberjack
The rest of the work is better, but it highly depends on the boss and other coworkers.

About the teaching, the key word is substitute. When a real teacher is missing, they have a hard time finding a substitute and take anybody they can find.
I'm happy making just a few extra thousands a year, that would cover contribution to pension plans, and non ordinary expenses, like medical or house repairs.

[Jean]

Work week was nice. Very agreable work. Lot of walking uphill in the sun. View was really nice, on the lake and the alps.
I only worked 27.5 hours, so that wont exactly be a lot of money, but that's still nice.
Also, we'll be going to gernany to visit gf family and friend this summer. That makes an interrail one of the best option. And that makes a slighty longer interrail that allows me to go to norway or slovakia/poland not much more expensive.
I always enjoyed norway very much, songoing there is always great. I'll probably go explore the untouristy part beetween trondheim and bodø. I'll try to reach on foot areas were the road is only connected by boat.
If i go to slovakia instead, i'll walk on the water divide va west of the tatras.
It's funy, because i quit coke and fast food as a retaliatory measure against dishonest maths, and it had the side effect of freeing a sizeable amount of money
So my money stress is quite lower. Also I got a lower (40% lower )price on therapy by asking how he calculated his rate

[loutfard]

It's funy, because i quit coke and fast food as a retaliatory measure against dishonest maths, and it had the side effect of freeing a sizeable amount of money

The savings can be considerable indeed. Depends a bit on the kind of coke you quit

In all seriousness, happy to read lots of good news in your last few messages! Keep us posted!

[Jean]

That's the 1.05 chf a can kind of coke, i think savings are mosrly from quiting mcdonalds.
Also, we went camping with gf. We wanted to go to a nice cliff cave, but we arrived at the beggining of the climb down when it was too dark for me.
I was much more scraed than last time about 8 years ago.
I dont remember if we repeled it down or just held the cable.
But good that i went back there before the meetup.
Because of this failure, we now have to camp a bit higher. The view is better. The fireplace is better too. But it's not a cliffcave.

[Jean]

We went to the cliff cave in the morning. The spot is really awesome. I'de feel like spending a week there just chilling and eating cheese. Only problem would be carrying enough water and cheese down those cables and ladder.
I really like those space of unregulated freedom and risk assesment. There aren't much left. Other one i can think of are frozen lakes.

[Jean]

I found a cavity in my tooth 47. Hope it wont be to bad.
Also a much appreciated eremite is visiting, so we camp at my forest. There was a trashbound chicken on sale before easter. I bougt it for 5 chf, and grilled it tonight. Very enjoyable meal, at a decent price for a meat heavy meal.
Also, my cutting and grilling technique is good enough to make me confident about fullfilling my fantasy of spending one week bikepacking and duckhunting, eating the catch of the day at the campfire. I have tears of joy just writing it.
I think GnJ is going way too far searching sa. SA is living as close to how we lived from 2M to 2k years ago.
I think i can only multiply this bliss by feeding multiple ducks to my multiple children.
Modern world makes the part where our kids don't die of starvation or septitis much easier. But the tradeoff is that we have to conquer the part where we feed them killed animals from the claw of modernity.

[Jean]

@guitarplayer and his SO visited me for a week.
I lend them my and my girlfriend's bike. As a terrible guest, i didn't grease my chain, but they did a tour. The day after, we walked to my forest, and the day after, to a hut i have a key for. I discoverrd a new path up which seemed shorter than the one i usually take. The day after, it was a long walk back to my place, we were able to just catch a local train at the end and save us 90min walking.
The day after, use a day card that we bought earlier. It allows to take every public transport in switzerland (mine was 54.-). We went to zermatt, andermatt and davos. We ained for great views from the train. Friday we hiked with my gf to the nearby hill, and saturday we visited the city.

I had a very good time, i really enjoy showing places to people. Well at least, i really enjoy showing places to and having as guest people like @guitar player and his SO.

Then this week end, me and gf decided to do a small bike tour.
Bike tour are really enjoyable if you don't try to go too far. We went to the Emme. My gf wanted to get clean, so she washed herself naked. At some point i noticed some move behind a bush on the way. The dude stayed there for quite long. So my gf went out of his sight. After a while, the dude went on the trail pas us, but instead of trying to be unseen, he started talking to me. He then strongly encouraged me to bath naked too, and after that, he wanted to show me a yoga exercise that required me to show him my dick. The guy pretended to be an indian yoga teacher, and he had a brown skin to back at least half of his lies, but i refused. Then he started talking about boobs. It was very much like the mene "Hello fellow straigth man". He ended up leaving.
That was weird.
I imagine that similar thing happen more often (probably the ratio is Nstraigth/Ngay) to women, and that they usually don't have the comfort of outweighting the weirdo. I usually just have to fake stupidity to get rid of them.

[ertyu]

roflmao

[7Wannabe5]

I'm sorry that happened to you. I'm also sorry if some of my recent writing triggered you.

[Jean]

@7w5
That's nice of you. I didn't intend to make you feel sorry. I don't know if i was really triggered since to me it implies a particular event, it's more an annoyance that built itself on the long term and that I felt the need to voice. Since you care enough about how i feel to write that you are sorry, it might be useful to let you know that there is no other consequence than me writing here, and you should absolutely not stop yourself from writing like and what you want to write. Also, i exaggerated when i say there is no escaping it, I can also just skip you posts, but that would be unfortunate

Also, I don't think the event was traumatic for me, none of my boundaries were violated. It was more for my girlfriend that it was unpleasant that a weird dude watched her bathing and commented on her boobs, even if she didn't ear those comments. I did my best to shield the view and keep the guy away. Maybe i should have escalated more, but I have a hard time imagining intermediate steps between talking nicely and breaking his neck and hiding the body.

[7Wannabe5]

@Jean:

Upon further consideration, it's likely that the reason why I may semi-consciously be feeling more free to write in an overtly sexual manner in my more recent posts is that I have now turned 60, so in my own mind I am like Dr. Ruth or Aunt Bee, writing about sexuality mostly in terms of my intellectually processed past. However, as one of my partners once crudely noted, "Between 18 and 80 is fair game.", so perhaps I should remain more circumspect for another couple decades.

[Jean]

@7w5 I think I was able to understand better what annoyed me. I'de gladely share it with you, but only if you ask. There is no ill feeling involved if you don't want to know.

Also, I have a job interview.
The job is reasonably interesting. It would fit well with studying, it would also fit well with having kids. All at the same time would be difficult of course, but if i have kids and money, I might no feel the need to get a new degree anyway. I have some hope that the job will allow me to get some language practice too, which would be nice.

[7Wannabe5]

@Jean:

I am curious, but given that censorship is one of my few hot-button political issues (for example, I periodically ask myself if I would be willing to shoot a human who was engaged in burning the last extant copies of some great books), there is a good possibility that I will not choose to self-censor on the basis of your revelation. For example, even though I recognize that many humans would find the notion of a 60 year old woman finding a 30 year old man sexually attractive fairly repulsive, I feel somewhat compelled to contribute to the record of "truth" with my revelation that I did indeed find Harry Styles charmingly roguish (rather like the sort of masculine-although-"dandy" character often found in regency era romance novels) in his "Watermelon Sugar" video. IOW, to the extent that the topic of female sexuality is still undergoing Copernican Revolution, it is unlikely I will be shushed, especially given the plethora of male-internet-"experts"-around-my-age who believe that they have "scientifically" determined what the ladies like (blech.)

[Jean]

I think what annoyed me, is that the frequent reminder of your practice of polyamory, and of the immigrant status of chosen sex partner appeared to me as virtue signaling, due to how regular and often out of topic they appeared to me, the virtue being signaled being openness, adventurousness, and lack of racism. Which made me cringe, because I don't think this forum is a place where people need to signal any virtue to be accepted, and also, it is quite clear from what you wrote in thousands of previous posts that you possess those virtues. It's a bit like when an old person needs to repeat constantly that he likes hip hop and or skateboard to try to appear cool to a younger crowd. Except we already all think that you're cool
There is absolutely no expectation on my side that you will censor yourself.
So it's not really the sexual aspect of it that annoyed me. Maybe I saw something (you're afraid of not being cool), and telling you helped you see it. Or more probably, I'm completely wrong, but it is still useful information that might help you understand the unexpected reaction of someone you epistolary interact with in the future.

[7Wannabe5]

@Jean:

Oh, gotcha. That's an easy misunderstanding to fix. I absolutely am not cool. I would not attempt to signal that I am cool for the same reason that I would not attempt to signal that I am skinny; the reality of the matter would become crystal clear within 30 seconds of finding oneself in my physical presence. On a 10 point scale, my level of coolness would maybe be 2.2 on a very-together kind of day. I find posting photos on this forum to be a bit of a PITA and I wish to maintain semi-anonymity, but if I have to offer proof of how thoroughly uncool I am, I believe fairly recent selfie I took while wearing my bird-watching explorer hat might suffice. I do sometimes wish I was cooler, but only for the purpose that my lifestyle might then serve as better promotional material for the practice of frugality towards not burning up the planet, etc.

Generally, I am less about "signaling coolness" and more about dorky-enthusiastically communicating something like "Hey, look. life can be more interesting than the rules you live by might lead you to believe." For some reason related to cognitive functioning, ENTPs are simply more likely to use themselves as reference when attempting to make a point (Mark Twain exhibits this to some extent in his writing.) Also, the main reason why I keep writing about polyamory here is that I find it somewhat baffling that "conventional career" and "conventional marriage/monogamy" aren't experienced or understood as similar concepts by most members of the forum. IOW, the arguments offered against polyamory are almost the same as the arguments that would be offered against non-careerism, "Oh, you just haven't found your passion, the right career/partner for you, what will happen to society if everybody did it, etc." I am as willing to accept the possibility and true value of a long-term conventional relationship as I am willing to accept the possibility and value of a long-term conventional career for any given human; I have witnessed many instances of successful manifestations of both of these. I just don't fully grok why one form of unconventionality is so strongly promoted here, while the other still gets some flack. My working theory is that tertiary Fi sends a centered-at-Modern INTJ back to Level Blue/Traditional (loyalty and interdependence)for inter-subjective relationship-formation while primary Ni sends a centered-at-Modern INTJ forward to Level Yellow/Metamodern (autonomy and self-reliance)for objective/inter-objective lifestyle systems creation. Dunno, but I suppose I could drop this as puzzle not likely to be solved through my current approach.

[bos]

My mental image of reading years of @7w5 comments is this: a sex goddess with bottomless depth and experience. She’s great in many dimension, writing (I'm honestly jealous how good you are with words), wit, life—and probably 10/10 in looks. If I walked into a room she was in, I’d feel the energy shift instantly. Every other post she writes casually mentions sex, not because she’s trying, but because she’s practically swimming in it.

And then… I realise that she older than my mom. Which just makes the whole thing even more mythical

@Jean:

Oh, gotcha. That's an easy misunderstanding to fix. I absolutely am not cool. I would not attempt to signal that I am cool for the same reason that I would not attempt to signal that I am skinny; the reality of the matter would become crystal clear within 30 seconds of finding oneself in my physical presence. On a 10 point scale, my level of coolness would maybe be 2.2 on a very-together kind of day.