Sublimation2026
Posted: Wed Jun 30, 2021 2:37 pm
This was my old journal from four years ago: viewtopic.php?t=9381
In this post, I'd like to summarise loosely what I've been doing since my last post here. I'm here because my intention for keeping a journal on a public forum is to hold me accountable for saving and sticking to a realistic budget. In my old journal I was very sensitive and I still am. Are we all sensitive yet some are more vocal about it than others?
Since my last post here, my life has been doing something different on a month to month basis. But then that's life, a fire hose of opportunities and lessons. I had lived an isolated life between 19 and 23 but it was a lovely and peaceful time. I lived with a housemate who moved overseas and is now one of my dear friends. I read a lot of fiction (and of course Jacob's Early Retirement Extreme). I thought about what I wanted to do with my life. I was very hard on myself, but real interpersonal growth was happening.
I met a girl who became my partner for two years, we broke up last year. In hindsight it was a toxic relationship on all fronts. The heart leads the blind and unaware, and it's only with retrospect we can see a little better. I told her about my ERE aspirations and she thought it was utterly ridiculous and laughable. I never forgot about ERE, but I certainly turned my back on it for a while. We rented a place together. I decided I wanted to do tattooing. I drew for a year every day but found the prospect of doing an unpaid tattoo apprenticeship unrealistic. I found an apprenticeship in construction that pays well above the minimum award rate and has already taught me to do my own jobs. I broke up with this girl. I made some new friends. I learned a lot about myself. I'm with a new girl now, who I can say without a doubt I can see myself with for the rest of my life. This has not happened to me before, I have always been apprehensive about long term relationships. Now I find myself wanting the whole shooting show with her, if it works out. Go figure. We've been together for about seven months now, living separately.
I will probably write more on my escapades during my four year hiatus from ERE, but for now I want to write about the present.
Sublimation is transforming a base impulse into something beautiful. A base impulse is something that can be improved upon or rather an ingredient for something better, something truly great. In my case, I already lead a good life. I am grateful for my position. I have dark days, days where I look at my life and shake my head and wonder why in the world I do what I do, and I believe that only comes from the fact that I rely on a wage to sustain my existence. Well, not for long! By 2026 I want to have enough money saved and invested so I don't have to work anymore. I probably will keep working, but only for myself and on my terms.
In my opinion this forum is one of the best out there and I hope that my posts increase the quality of this community. Thank you for reading.
In this post, I'd like to summarise loosely what I've been doing since my last post here. I'm here because my intention for keeping a journal on a public forum is to hold me accountable for saving and sticking to a realistic budget. In my old journal I was very sensitive and I still am. Are we all sensitive yet some are more vocal about it than others?
Since my last post here, my life has been doing something different on a month to month basis. But then that's life, a fire hose of opportunities and lessons. I had lived an isolated life between 19 and 23 but it was a lovely and peaceful time. I lived with a housemate who moved overseas and is now one of my dear friends. I read a lot of fiction (and of course Jacob's Early Retirement Extreme). I thought about what I wanted to do with my life. I was very hard on myself, but real interpersonal growth was happening.
I met a girl who became my partner for two years, we broke up last year. In hindsight it was a toxic relationship on all fronts. The heart leads the blind and unaware, and it's only with retrospect we can see a little better. I told her about my ERE aspirations and she thought it was utterly ridiculous and laughable. I never forgot about ERE, but I certainly turned my back on it for a while. We rented a place together. I decided I wanted to do tattooing. I drew for a year every day but found the prospect of doing an unpaid tattoo apprenticeship unrealistic. I found an apprenticeship in construction that pays well above the minimum award rate and has already taught me to do my own jobs. I broke up with this girl. I made some new friends. I learned a lot about myself. I'm with a new girl now, who I can say without a doubt I can see myself with for the rest of my life. This has not happened to me before, I have always been apprehensive about long term relationships. Now I find myself wanting the whole shooting show with her, if it works out. Go figure. We've been together for about seven months now, living separately.
I will probably write more on my escapades during my four year hiatus from ERE, but for now I want to write about the present.
Sublimation is transforming a base impulse into something beautiful. A base impulse is something that can be improved upon or rather an ingredient for something better, something truly great. In my case, I already lead a good life. I am grateful for my position. I have dark days, days where I look at my life and shake my head and wonder why in the world I do what I do, and I believe that only comes from the fact that I rely on a wage to sustain my existence. Well, not for long! By 2026 I want to have enough money saved and invested so I don't have to work anymore. I probably will keep working, but only for myself and on my terms.
In my opinion this forum is one of the best out there and I hope that my posts increase the quality of this community. Thank you for reading.