Purpose
I think I have run out of dreams..
I mean, there is a list of things you want to do / accomplish in your life.
I started adding things to that list back when I was a child (things like being an astronaut, eating as much candies as I wanted...) and kept adding things along the years.
There is also a mechanism to remove things for the list:
- Things that already done / accomplished dissapear from that list.
- Those that aren't (or I don't consider) achievable (such as being an astronaut) also dissapear: maybe they move into another list of "things I couldn't achieve", but I don't feel that list annoys me at all, so for me it's ok.
- There are also some that at some moment entered the list but over time didn't seem interesting enough or worth the effort / risk..
I can't really tell when it happened, but it may have been part of the reason of my distress in the last times.
I realized of this some weeks / months ago (I really can't tell), and since then have been thinking about the purpose in my life..
This week I was home alone, and have had time to think: I reached the conclusion that all I want from life is for it to go on as slow as possible.
I want to savor every moment I spend with DW, and the children.
Use the very little spare time I have in enjoyable hobbies.
The less enjoyable experiences or things I have to do, I want to do them the smoothest I can, and not to spend a second worrying or angry at them.
And that's it: I just want to enjoy every moment and everything as much as possible.
I know it may be difficult sometimes, particularly when the children test the limits, or in some situations at work, but I have a purpose!
I may not have dreams, but I have a purpose!

Measuring well-being
I'll try to track my Well Being using the "Warwick-Edinburgh Mental Well-being Scale" I saw in Wolf's journal.

Since I also tracked my well being in a custom made manner between January and February 2017, I wanted to check the data and draw the conclusions I could from them: then I tried to track my well being in general and then about different subjects (Work, SO..), and I also tracked sleeping hours to see if there was any correlation.
The few data show there seems to be correlation with sleep, being better to sleep around 8 hours, no less than 7.
It also shows that DW was the best part of my life...

So now I'll add to the WEMWBS the sleeping quantity with a similar scale.
I'll also try to track the data twice a week (on my previous attempt I did it daily): one for workdays (tipically on friday) and one for weekends (mondays): let's see where does it take me...
