I don't know why I stay. I see too many cute girls every day and most seem interested but their English is shit, which is disappointing. I'm not enjoying the drama one bit but there's something about it I feel attached to. Still trying to put my finger on it.
It's hard to find intense attraction, a strong emotional connection, and capacity to speak English. I'd love to date a cute science nerd again. Once this ends, I feel hesitant to enter a monogamous relationship again. I'd need a few weeks-months of actually knowing someone to make sure they're not messed up in the head.
I've failed miserably at developing my programming skills. Fasting has also been at the back seat with the stress but I'm nearing the end of a fast now. Expenses so far this month are approaching $35/day average, including my housing expense. Over half of this is food.
I'm bored to death in my area so moving in a week. I found 3 rooms to move to for next month. One is 11000 baht, close to Saturday night market (and most everything else), with kitchen and gym. One is 3800 baht, close to night bazaar, no kitchen, bed is hard as a rock though and I'd have to get sheets, pillows, etc., one is 9500 baht, with kitchen and view, cooler area, but further from town. Maybe I'd find new things in that area or maybe I'd be bored as well there.
Looking at my expenses, I could ERE if I lived with mom and dad. But F No to that again. If I got my expenses to 1k/month for a solid quarter (that'd include a visa run or moving abroad again), I'd feel very secure and confident. Doing this while dating is harder since I don't know all the cheap areas that are nice to stroll around and I do actually enjoy restaurants or street food. Having Mexican food or pizza does feel damn good too so that's harder since buying the cheese required doesn't actually cost much less than restaurants.
I miss how cheap cheese was in Europe.
1) Expenses: $30/day averaged from the 1st of the month, not counting flights/rooms cancelled with credit rewards
2) Health: Fast twice/week, sleep earlier and a solid 8 hours
3) Dating: Make plans with a cute girl every few days-either through dating app or in person, try learning more Thai while I'm here. Get some food at a night market, laugh while trying to learn each other's language, walk by the river or moat under the moonlight, some light exercise or acroyoga at the park-all cheap date ideas. No fancy restaurants or living together. Call my family more so I feel more connected to people I can relate deeply to and to take some of the edge of being in a foreign land off with connection.
*Edited to remove rant
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on Sun May 27, 2018 3:36 am, edited 2 times in total.