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Re: TheRedHare's Journal

Post by TheRedHare » Sun Feb 25, 2018 1:13 pm

December, January and February Updates

It has been awhile since my latest update so I'll try to summarize all that has happen within the last couple of months

December:
This month was pretty bad for savings as I bought a lot of hiking gear for a pretty long 3 day backpacking trip in Tennessee. Most of the stuff I got was very high end, hence why it was so expensive, and so I rationalized buying it all by thinking that it will last for a long time.

The trip itself was rough, but left me with many good memories. I also learned a lot about myself, and about things I need to improve on - like knot tying skills haha. There was one point where it was pouring rain, it was getting dark, and we were all freezing cold. One of my friends is a marine and is a great outdoors-man. He quickly tied up a tarp for us so that we could make our tents underneath. I was totally useless in helping make this shelter as I could not stop shaking from the cold and didn't really know what I was doing.

After I returned from my camping trip, my cousin/boss complained about how I was not doing enough for the business, despite me putting in over 150 hours in our latest project....he never looked up my recorded hours nor did he remember when I told him I was taking a week off. Because of his own insecurities and about the businesses finances...which he just found out how little money we (he) was profiting (because of 3 payrolls of 45k and 2x 65k)...this is of course after I gave him the bank account password, which he forgot. Despite all this, he ridiculed me in public at a restaurant and in front of another employee....I guess he though he could do this because I was family and because I'm the youngest. This was when I decided I needed to find a new job.

January:
My cousin made the decision to switch me off of my salary and onto hourly because he didn't want to pay me anymore...he did this after we finished the project, so all my hours and "bonuses" he promised me went out the window....so I made 0 income this month. It was not that big of a deal for me to leave, in fact I was happy I was leaving. There were too many times where I had to walk on eggshells in order to keep my cousin happy.
Lucky for me, I got a new job by mid January and left my cousin. My new job is much more stable as I now work for a government contractor as a software support analyst, not exactly a dev position, but I figured I could work my way into one. I make a little bit more than I did, now at 47k and I got a little signing bonus.

February:
I took 2 weeks off and started working at my new job in mid February. The people are nice, seem to know there stuff and are helpful. I haven't recorded my savings for this month, but they haven't been that great due to no income until the end of this month.

Jujitsu has been going very well. I had a couple moments were I felt like quitting in order to save more money, but figured it was worth the investment. I've gotten much better and feel much more confident in my abilities, despite me getting my ass kicked 90% of the time.

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Enneagram Type 4

Post by TheRedHare » Fri Mar 02, 2018 2:35 pm

I took this test a while back and got Type 4, but refused to believe it. I remember reading the type description and agreeing with it but at the same time hating it. This was when I was in military school and didn't want to be seen as an "individual" so I tried to just be part of the group.

Fast forward to today; I retook the test and got the same thing. After re-reading the description and many hours spent on reading about this type I've decided to accept it. I think one of the big things that bothered me about being a 4 was this idea that 4s are often seen as wimpy, useless artists who put themselves up on a pedestal and congratulate each other for being so "original". Kinda like how all these "actors" pat themselves on the back for "being brave" for something like coming out of the closet or some other dumb shit. I despise that and always hated people like that. On the opposite end you see those brilliant artists who were tormented by their own insecurities and social pressures that they one day killed themselves over or died a lonely miserable death (thinking of van Gogh or Poe)

I think most of my 4nes stems from when I was a child. Growing up I was always seen as an outsider, but not so much so that I was completely ostracized from the group like nerds usually are but enough so that I wasn't part of the "in" crowd. Normally in schools there are cliques that form like the jocks, nerds, preps ect. I was kinda like that misfit type kid. I wasn't smart enough or focused enough to be a nerd, wasn't strong enough to be a jock, and wasn't pretty or rich enough to be a prep. (I know I'm archetyping heavily, but this is childhood and kids are not developed yet) Realizing this now makes a lot of sense to me. I so wanted to be part of the "in" crowd, and rejected my own talents by dropping band (which I was really good at), chess and anything else I thought wasn't "cool". I tried out for the sports team, but failed miserably....I even remember the whole class laughing at my failed attempt of trying to be on the soccer team when pointed out by the jocks.

I won't try to write an autobiography here, so I'll just go over some of the patterns I now see in hindsight.

My father was really into the hippy movement back in the 60s. He traveled with several bands as a singer and guitar player (and actually got pretty popular (some of there songs made it into movies), but the band was terribly managed), he acted in movies (as an extra) and played the lead role In many plays (most of these were local, but still very good). Oh he also smoked a ton of weed :) He one day quit the hippy life and worked in a plumbing warehouse where he learned pretty much every thing you need to know about plumbing. He eventually became a certified master plumber and ran his own plumbing business....to bad he didn't know how to manage his finances.

Realizing this, I now see that the apple did not fall far from the tree. Not only do I look a lot like my dad, but also have his same temperament. Although this is cool and all, I have no desire to be a hippy, or a traveling musician (I secretly wish I was a musician, but having a stable job is nice). The way I see things now, I'd like to channel my creative energy through creating art, music and writing poetry shit lol. I need a stable job, in order to have some security so I'll just stick to programming or IT in general. Thinking about taking music lessons to get back into my long lost talent/passion....I don't care if it's "useful" or not, it's a means of expression for me. Bam* *Drops mic.
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Re: Enneagram Type 4

Post by Jason » Fri Mar 02, 2018 3:18 pm

TheRedHare wrote:
Fri Mar 02, 2018 2:35 pm
He eventually became a certified master plumber and ran his own plumbing business....to bad he didn't know how to manage his finances.

Sad that he flushed it all away.

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Re: Enneagram Type 4

Post by TheRedHare » Fri Mar 02, 2018 3:33 pm

Jason wrote:
Fri Mar 02, 2018 3:18 pm
TheRedHare wrote:
Fri Mar 02, 2018 2:35 pm
He eventually became a certified master plumber and ran his own plumbing business....to bad he didn't know how to manage his finances.
Sad that he flushed it all away.
Old Plumbers never die, they just get drained out.

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Re: TheRedHare's Journal

Post by Jason » Fri Mar 02, 2018 3:38 pm

I actually googled “60’s singer who became plumber” but only came up with the original singer of The Dave Clark 5 who was already a plumber and quit because he could make more money plumbing than singing. Not to mention Dave Clark was a complete control freak.

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Re: TheRedHare's Journal

Post by TheRedHare » Fri Mar 02, 2018 4:40 pm

Jason wrote:
Fri Mar 02, 2018 3:38 pm
I actually googled “60’s singer who became plumber” but only came up with the original singer of The Dave Clark 5 who was already a plumber and quit because he could make more money plumbing than singing. Not to mention Dave Clark was a complete control freak.
haha, well if you can find any info on "Peachtree" band or "Sunshine Trolley" band let me know. I'll have to ask what movie there song was in.

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