The Reluctant Journal

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Post by jennypenny » Wed Apr 29, 2015 12:27 pm

I'm so sorry about your dog.

Every once in a while I notice how old my dogs are getting (one in particular) and my chest clenches. I'm going to fall apart when she goes.

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Post by llorona » Wed Apr 29, 2015 2:27 pm

I'm sorry to hear about your dog. When we lose pets, it hurts so badly. It sounds like your dog gave many gifts to you, including this last legacy of pointing you in new directions...

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Post by vexed87 » Fri May 01, 2015 8:01 am

Sorry to hear about the loss of your family member (because that's what they are!). I think your bang on about "smelling the roses". If you haven't read it already, I think you'd enjoy "a guide to the good live". Discovering and practicing stoicism really helps you frame life in a structured and meaningful way.

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Post by LastDigitOfPi » Sat May 02, 2015 11:01 am

I am truly sorry to hear of your loss. What you wrote was beautiful and reflects perfectly what I have experienced. The most important things in life I have learned through my relationships with our dogs and I am so happy that her last gift to you was so transformational. May time and good memories help you through this period.

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Post by 1taskaday » Thu May 07, 2015 2:05 pm

I have that gut wrenching feeling back that I used to have in my old workplace...I have heard on the grapevine that the person that replaced me in my old job is unhappy and stressed...quelle surprise....and wants to come back to her old position(my cushy number at the moment)...I can feel my chest constricting as I write this and think about returning to that sh**hole again.

Once the panic subsides I will think about this all rationally...maybe it will never happen...

I just need about 3 more years,I can't quit before that.

I have planned another trip and will be going soon.
Can't wait,need to get away for a while again.

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Post by 1taskaday » Tue May 12, 2015 9:40 am

On the eve of my upcoming (short)trip and I feel so excited..just can't wait.

The weather is crappy enough here,(lots of rain).
It is in the high 20s/low 30s celcius where I'm going-can't wait.
This trip will be solo again as someone has to stay and take care of all the responsibilities..no one really wanted to join me anyhow.

After doing it solo the last time I have no anxieties about it this time.

My 2 big concerns are ants and people bothering me-my usuals.
Some day I know I will wake up and look forward to "people interruptions/visits",I just seem to be running out of years for this "road to Damascus" conversion to occur.

On the job front,opinions are divided whether I will have to go back to my old job or not.It really depends on whether the person that replaced me can hack the stress...Why would they in my opinion?...but some people like a challenge and to feel "alive" at work...not me anymore.

There is one more nice area I could work/hide in (which may become vacant), if I have to leave my position here.
Any ways I really couldn't care less,I refuse to worry about it.

If all comes to all I will apply for other jobs (now that I transitioned so easily to this one).I have lost the fear of "moving" and think I may even enjoy the change to somewhere new if I had to.The kids are more self sufficient now and don't need me as much.

I am keeping an eye out on all the job ads for something that may interest me,nothing to lose as I only need about another 3 years.

Health-wise I feel great,so recovered from last year's stresses.
I have kept up my healthy eating,excercise and green drinks.
The holiday rental is also prepared for the season ahead-only non-nationals that have to take a flight-so it should be easy enough.

So my next entry (if I can pull myself away from the pool to make one),will be from a sunny climate...

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Post by 1taskaday » Sat May 16, 2015 12:39 pm

Internet crap but free so this post may be blunted.
Really warm,could move to live here in the morning.
Probably suffering from chemical high due to ant and would you believe it RAT extermination.The joys of a hot climate.

Cleaning,reading and walking loads.
Scared off all potential visitors-not fully home and dry yet,but hopeful.
Read Tracks book and really enjoyed it.

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Post by 1taskaday » Tue May 19, 2015 5:36 am

Back in the land of work and nobody knows I was even away.
It's like living a double life.
I wear long sleeve high neck tops in case anyone notices a tan and give a few complaints about the week-end weather being so disappointing for this time of year...and so it goes....

I find it much easier this way than dealing with 20 questions or possible resentment.
My DH thinks I'm a coward hiding things away but I just know at the end of the day, people are people and I certainly do not want to draw any ire on top of me if I can avoid it.

Did the trip really cheaply as well-I always love this challenge.
I did the whole thing; flights, rental car, food etc for135.Not bad for 5 days.
I could definitely live in another country, especially a warm one. I would definitely need to be doing something for a few hours a day though.
In the country I was in, the norm is to often take a full day eating and socialising in each other's homes. This would crack me up-I could never do this for a full day,no matter how interesting the conversation is.

Work is still so easy,it can't last-nothing this good ever does.
I will just enjoy every minute of it while it does.
Have another trip away for a week at the end of the year on a work course.
Bring it on I say, breaks the monotony of weeks at work.

Still on my plan, slow ,slow ,and slow but eventually I will get there.
Just over 3 more years and i won't care where I will be moved to,as I will be FI and free to decide for myself.

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Post by 1taskaday » Sun May 24, 2015 11:28 am

Just finishing a really tough week-end(work-wise) . Glad it's over. Night shifts and doing work I'm not too used off included.
The biggest stress was probably getting the summer-rental house ready.
It's the same every year,(a real rush with full-time work and family commitments) but then when it's up and ready it's fine.

We really don't use any of our holiday properties for family use much, as I'm so uptight about keeping them clean. They have to be spotless for holiday customers or they will give poor reviews. As there is no internet access in any of them either, the kids have no interest being there (and are high maintenance to constantly entertain if we do stay in one of them.)

Probably a regret I'll have in my old age, but right now I just want to keep my work level and hassle to a minimum.

I just think the properties should be paying their own annual expenses. As my goal is retirement by 50 I need to keep my expenses low.If I was paying for all expenses on these houses it would put a real dent in my savings rate. And for what? ...as we don't have much time-off together to use them as a family anyway.

My DH thinks we should just stop renting them after this year, but I think we should continue into retirement and use them as a side income for me.

Life would certainly be easier without the pressure of keeping them perfect so we will see...

Since my return from my recent trip I am longingly looking at every RV and tourist cycler I see passing.
Not good...my freedom is still a good bit away and I should settle back into routine life and quit longing for the freedom to travel.

My DH is so content in his routines it's just a joke the difference between us.

He is taking most of the summer off,(which will make life really easy for me) and just hanging out pottering in his interests whilst I have to force myself to stop looking up flights....I think I will definitely be a solo traveller when we retire.

Good that I will be well used to it by then and probably a more important thing is that he will be used to me heading away as well.

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Post by DutchGirl » Mon May 25, 2015 2:23 am

Can I ask why you are keeping these holiday properties, if they are more of a hassle than of any good use? You could perhaps sell them, and then put that money in investments. Investments don't need to be cleaned...

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Post by 1taskaday » Mon May 25, 2015 5:00 am

Hi DutchGirl,

First off,we know NOTHING about investments,which is a joke considering all the sites I read speak of nothing but investments.
I love reading and understanding about them,but thats as far as it goes.My DH knows and trusts even less.

I believe in the saying "Stick to what you know".
At age 46 I think we will stick to what we feel comfortable with which are the properties.

Also the market COMPLETELY collapsed and we may not even be able to sell them where they are situated.
So as the saying goes,if you get LEMONS make lemonade.

They are an investment of sorts???
They could potentially bring in an income of up to 18,000 a year-(with a lot of hassle) if worked properly.Maybe when i retire and have the time,energy and interest.

So all in all we just keep it all going for now as we are kind of stuck ....

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Post by 1taskaday » Sun May 31, 2015 6:05 am

The theme for this year was meant to be "FREETIME".

A joke, can never really happen with full-time work and overtime and summer house rental business/(pain in the ass).

Anyway with regards the New Year's resolutions:
Still off caffeine, off sugar-mostly but a few lapses if sugar available while doing nights.
Cycling and surfing never happened -just haven't made the time for them. If I had my week-ends free then I would have some chance, but there is always some overtime to be done and I want to hit my target of 20,000 by Dec 31st.

Still eating healthy and having a green drink every day.

The plan to save 20,000 by Dec 31st is still ongoing.

After my DH and I devised our retirement plan in February, we will be having our first 6 monthly retirement meeting the end of June.
I was supposed to have 10,000 saved by then.
I will only have 9,100-which is Ok if I can keep this up. It will mean I will have approx,18,200 by the end of the year instead of 20,000.

Once I get 20,000 saved,(end of Dec 2015) ,I can then pay down the rest of my half of the mortgage of one of the rentals-it's at about 30,000 now.

All in all life mosies onwards...job really easy, no stress there.
Still consuming most of my time between that and overtime at the old work place.
Often dream of being retired now but will just put the time in and stick to the plan.

While considering side income while retired-I could
1.Do a proper summer rental business with the 3 rentals we own.(I would much prefer to stay in each of them for a season when they are at their best).Something like the lifestyle of one of the Dutch members who moves homes depending on the season.
2.Start a dog grooming business-I would do this for free as I love dogs so much
3.Do a course on foot care and give treatments.

Right now all I really want is to be totally FREE but after maybe 3 years of constant "hedonist living" maybe I'll want a purpose rather than just freedom and pleasure...

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Post by 1taskaday » Sun Jun 07, 2015 5:40 pm

There are a lot of threads on this forum about relationships/compatibility issues lately.

Everyone comments from their own circumstances/life experience...I don't think there is any one piece of advice that works for all.

What works for one couple could derail another and vice versa.It really is all down to personal preferences and tolerances.

My DD(wise INTJ teen) often asks me how my DH and I ended up together as we are so different...I kind of blunder through a general/not really answering the question response because looking from her point of view we have very little of "life-preferences" in common.

Sometimes I wonder what will happen when the kids are gone and there are no obligations for us as a couple to fulfil?...I suppose only time will tell...

Will he tolerate my extensive travelling and living life on the outskirts of society...can a relationship really survive 2 people doing completely opposite things long-term?

He already thinks I am putting my life "on-hold" so that I can live in the future "post-retirement"...and maybe he is correct...probably because right now, I am not living life on my own terms...(lots of obligations), that I think it is a great time to put the hard work in.If you have a crazy plan to retire at 50 with enough money to support yourself for the rest of your days (without working),there has to be some effort extended to make it happen.

I just truly believe that people can design the life that they want to live, and that's what I am planning for at the moment. It’s such a long-term plan that most people think either it is not worth it or that it will never really happen.

I know people go crazy when the word "sacrifice" is used to describe any aspect of "ERE”, but in a partnership with one partner committed and the other not, it can sure feel like it sometimes...

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Post by 1taskaday » Mon Jun 15, 2015 4:33 pm

So much to be thankful for....must remember that....

All family off for summer now,except me which majorly sucks.
I know I should be happy that DH is off with teens,but I am so jealous.

Was talking to a woman at work who's husband is retired.
I just commented that I was finding it tough,my DH constantly asking me to do energetic activities after work or when I was off-me being tired from work.
She says it's the same with her and got kind of cranky while saying " It's fine for him off all the time,I just am so tired and need to relax".
Now this lady's kids are all raised and gone and she still feels put upon by the demands of her retired DH.She's also a sweetheart of a lady and never really complains about anything.

I know I've said it before BUT only one partner retired must really suck-definetly not for me.

Work is fine,no stress.
I am so ultra careful now not to take on any extra responsibilities-major lesson learned from last job.I feel a bit mean sometimes but really everyone's shoulders are broad enough to carry their own burdens...and if they are not,let them take it up with the manager,,which I am definitely not and never will be again as long as I live.

I think one of the difficulties I have with people at work is that I can see the problem that their weaknesses will lead them to...miles before they end up there...examples being,no time management,over promising stuff because they can't say NO,not trusting anyone and therefore not delegating etc .This predicting of the end-result of their bad work habits causes me to lose all empathy for them when they end up floundering and turning to me for a bail out.

I know I am really mean but I figure I am raising two kids at home and that's more than enough...the last thing I need is to be mom at work too.

I often just listen to the crap managers have to listen to and am impressed with their ability to remain patient and calm.

I guess that gene skipped me.

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Post by 1taskaday » Wed Jun 17, 2015 1:59 pm

I have now definitely determined that I carry a self-destruct gene.

I have come to this conclusion based on the fact that I have the dream job where I can pass time stress-free and get paid well. But yet I have to/seem to need to draw stress on myself.

Hence my conclusion that I carry a self-destruct gene.

In my new job there are inefficiencies and dis-organisation from time to time...nothing too major, and as the workload is so small these are ignored and the ship sails merrily along.

These are a normal part of every workplace.

Everyone else can ignore them so why can't I?

What is wrong with me that I can't just shut my big mouth and smile and pretend they don't exist like everyone else?

But I can't, inefficiencies frustrate me if there is an easy way to fix them ...why wouldn't everyone want things to be efficient, it just blows my mind.

So as one of my co-workers said to me, either shut up giving out about them or instigate change to fix them.

Now this is where the dilemma gets really interesting for me...as I have always wanted a job where I have to put in very little energy (and get paid well)...the dream job, BUT the inefficiencies are driving me nuts when I can see a better way of doing things...so is it worth expending the energy to change things and (the hardest for me),bring the people/resistors with me, when if I just accept things as they are I would retain all my energy and have the dream job!

I know I am being unfair to the staff under me as well, giving out about things the way they are yet too LAZY to put the energy/effort into changing them.

I just know the process of changing things in work places so well now that I wonder is it really worth the effort and commitment?

I am planning in retiring in just over 3 years, the ship has sailed along merrily and successfully for years the way it is and is really a great place to work.

What is wrong with me?

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Post by 1taskaday » Mon Jun 22, 2015 1:46 pm

I have decided the inefficiencies and disorganisation in my workplace are "fine" and I am not wasting any energy fixing them.

I am so proud of myself for reaching this decision-a thing I could never have decided before now.
Age brings many gifts, especially the gift of not needing to prove your ability anymore....

I have now turned into a "dead-fly" (in my own opinion) at my workplace.
To everyone else I am probably "great" and efficient BUT I know the truth...one should always be striving to improve things and make them more efficient BUT I have decided to "coast" for the next 3 years and therefore not expend any energy on improvements.

Now that I have decided this I need to tackle the next issue..

I am now 46 and I see my body shape slightly changing.
I absolutely hate this.
While I have maintained the same weight all my life, and still can fit into my 20s clothes, they fit differently.
I see a slight layer of fat replacing muscle all over.
The beginning of the decline...
If I do not reverse this decline soon I will just slip into a weaker flabbier middle aged body that I detest.

I have dreams of still doing physically inhumane treks, cycles and mountain climbs (when I shake my kids loose). BUT if I allow this deterioration of my muscle mass without reversing it, then my dreams will never happen.

I know it's because of lack of free time (and energy) from full-time work, overtime,holiday rental,kids,family etc BUT I have to make a plan of action and more importantly STICK TO IT.

Because of my lack of free time and energy I am considering a personal trainer...I feel that desperate about it.

I could just decide I will reverse it all when I retire and have loads of free time... but 3 years is just too long to wait...maybe I would just think it was impossible then, and horror of all horrors just accept it.

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Post by shade-tree » Mon Jun 22, 2015 4:11 pm

It's virtually inevitable that our bodies will change, so please don't hate on yours! And, great job keeping the weight down for a couple of decades, that's more than most of us can say, so you must be doing something right.

I recently went on a challenging hike and struck up a conversation on the way with a really fit, lively 80-year-old guy. It sounded like his volunteering commitments were nearly a full time job(!) As far as I can tell, he was every bit as fit as me, an above average fitness 40-something. Moral to that story, I think, is that it's not what you look like, but what your body can DO that's the thing.

To your other point, another friend of mine in her 50's found a trainer near her workplace and has worked with him twice a week for half a year or so. She has gotten strong and has visibly lost weight. I don't know how much it cost, but seems like you could have this person work out a plan for you, then you implement it on your own without his/her help once you've developed the habit.

Good luck!

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Post by 1taskaday » Tue Jun 23, 2015 2:19 am

Hi Shade-tree,

My disappointment is not cosmetic; the BS that surrounds the image of the "beautiful" feminine body does not register on my radar.
I am definitely not the "skinny jean" type of woman when loose and comfortable enables me to function better.

BUT losing my strength and getting physically weak will limit my options in life.
This I will not accept without a fight...

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Post by shade-tree » Tue Jun 23, 2015 9:49 pm

what you say is soo true, 1taskaday! It's nice to be physically strong enough to do what comes up, whether it's running for the bus or going on a big adventure without much notice. And today's news says those skinny jeans are hazardous to our health, anyway. :-) (I always suspected as much.)

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Post by 1taskaday » Fri Jun 26, 2015 7:07 am

After researching what is the best course of action for me to take to regain/keep my muscle mass I have decided the following.

At 46 I know myself,I know I can self motivate,BUT I also know I have a time/energy issue with regard to excercise.

My ideal for muscular strength would be some type of outdoor manual labour or sport: like digging or surfing.

This is not going to happpen in the near future while I continue to work fulltime plus overtime.

So for the summer,(as I am off 45 days out of 60-who's counting?) I am going to invest in a second lighter kettlebell (for upper body strength)and learn the routine from youtube for a full body workout.

I will also cyle outdoors as much as I can.If I get to surf/swim all the better.

Then come Autumn/Winter-(the time of year I hate), there is a gym next to where I work that I can join for 3/6 months.
It does kettlebell classes as well as all other facilities.

To-day I will start by decluttering our home gymroom and buying the lighter kettlebell.

The fight back begins...

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Post by 1taskaday » Sun Jun 28, 2015 4:01 am

One of the most important body parts for older people is feet.
It is vital that they retain the ability to walk.
If the feet are screwed up older people walk less and this is detrimental for them long term.

I have abused my feet like most people (by the time they reach my age) and have all the signs of it.
Recently I have researched going shoeless/barefoot and am amazed at the benefits/cure for ailments that this can bring.

I am not entirely sure of what I should be wearing on my feet (apart from nothing-which I cannot/will not do in public as I think people think I'm weird enough as it is).

So I'm going to experiment...cheap ballet-like shoes or flip flops(all pretty,as I love sexy looking feet).

Will this work...have't a clue but I intend to find out.

The pictures of the feet of people who never wore shoes are facinating-toes all wide a part etc
I went barefoot yesterday at home for most of the day and had restless leg syndrome and foot sole pain last night in bed.So something must be awakening...I will persist and see what improvements this will bring.

The internet is full of barefoot running advice and types of sheoes for it BUT as I don't run this is useless to me.

Also found an old Yogalate DVD which I did yesterday and loved it.
Must get my new 8kg kettlebell yet...I hate buying more stuff to clutter up the house more than it already is..but it will be of benefit.

I know if I didn't work I would be very happy to spend my time experimenting like this...so much to learn and almost always the opposite to what we think is correct.

I wonder why this is?....I suppose going shoeless means there is nothing to buy to wear on our feet...the usual less consumerism,nobody to impress and that whole can of worms.

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Post by 1taskaday » Mon Jun 29, 2015 4:33 am

Just a quick update on barefeet stuff.

The only clear/good info. I could find on this was Mark Sisson's site-Mark's daily apple.
There are a few "angry" barefoot blogs with mostly rants which were OK'ish too.

The reason I am so excited about this "barefoot" stuff is that my left foot used to hurt in all types of runners after an hour or so.
It was bearable but annoying-why suffer if I can correct it so easily.
Walked for 1 hour yesterday in "ballerina" light shoes and the sole came off...otherwise even feeling every stone etc under foot was fine,no problem.
This is supposed to be really good for feet muscles-all uneven surfaces make them work more.

Walk barefoot around house all the time now,drive barefoot too.
I wear flipflops out in public.This won't do in the cold wet winters though.

There was still an issue about what I could wear trekking or long walks outside(ballerina shoes are too flimsy and fall apart),so being the consumer that I am I ordered New Balance Minimus runners costing 50 on the internet.A joke really but walking/trekking is vital to my health and wellbeing so I felt I had no choice....

I was looking at the Vibram 5 finger stuff but it costs a fortune,and how long does it last?
Also ordered cheap "skate shoes"(for winter wear) and Teva sandals for another 40.

So really this new "barefoot" footwear or lack of it has cost me 100 including posting,what am I doing wrong?

My feet do really feel great going barefoot most of the time but I am a bit bummed at the financial cost.

Also bought my 2 new kettlebells at 6KG and 8KG-amazing how weak I am lifting even the 6 KG over my shoulders/head.

So all in all probably a disaster financially but healthwise good.....

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Post by slimicy » Mon Jun 29, 2015 10:06 am

The vibrams last a surprisingly long time. I have 3 pairs, and none have completely broken down. The way to do it on the cheap is to go somewhere that has them in stock and figure out your size, then just wait until you can snipe an online sale. Woot.com usually has them a few times a year for 35$ instead of the 85-100$ retail price.

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Post by tommytebco » Mon Jun 29, 2015 11:45 am

So really this new "barefoot" footwear or lack of it has cost me 100 including posting,what am I doing wrong?

The concept of cheap loose fitting sandals comes to mind. Mine, from,, wallyworld, cost about $15 and eliminated the sore spot on the outside of my foot, by that bone that sticks out a bit.

Also: beware of vibrams if you, like me, have a thompson's toe (second toe longer than big toe). fine print says they won't fit.

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Post by Oucha » Mon Jun 29, 2015 3:12 pm

Hello 1taskaday!

I have read through your journal and I would say:

Dont wait 3 years if you hate your workplace so much. YOU CAN RETIRE TODAY!

I'm amazed when people having over 300 000 euros of net worth feel like THEY HAVE TO WORK.
With a 8% yearly gain you have 24000 eur/year. Thats 2000eur/month. Thats more than enough especially if someone doesnt like his cubicle job.

Sorry, if I am too intrusive, coming from a country where average salary is 500-600 euros I just see the numbers from a different perspective.

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