Apparently I am only inspired to write in this quarterly.
I'm getting bored with my business. I mainly started it as a stop gap to have some income coming in but it's not work I'm very passionate about. It has its pluses. I'm my own boss, largely location independent, I mostly work when I want. But I still find myself driven to work even when I don't really feel like it because, clients, and because, relationships, and because, it hurts the business when you're not consistent. And it's burning me out. but I find myself working less and less the last few weeks. And it shows. I made the lowest # last month than I have in a year, about $1000. The weird thing is... I don't care (as much). I am a little scared that I don't care, but at the same time, of course I don't care, I'm ERE or Semi-ERE or something? I am still settling into this whole thing, 18 months later. I am still not feeling very much comfort from all the SWR math I did. A substantial portion of my portfolio is in tax advantaged vehicles and while I do have some things in taxable accounts, it would feel scary! to dive in to those funds unless the total balance of my accounts was increasing which, until recently, that was not happening since I was in PP. Maybe if I see PP doing better finally I will feel better about not working and hustling for that extra $$.
My NW is recovered to where it was a year ago before stocks took off and gold/bonds took their dive. It's reassuring to see. I haven't done all of the numbers but I am probably hovering around $350K or within 1% of it. So I think my WR is still around 0%. Good stuff. I should probably see if re-balancing is something I should be doing.
I don't track anything financial anymore, really, other than what Mint tells me. Mint says I spent an average of $1361 over the past two months. My Obamacare subsidy is about to kick in (I have been fronting the entire premium so far because, inept bureaucracy, it will hopefully go away permanently next month) though so that would drop it to the <$1200/mo I have been tracking all along. I am at $4800 for the year though in income so I'm cool with it. On the plus side if I have three shitty ass months in a row, I can apply for a free phone finally from Assurance Wireless. That'll save me like $100/yr. I take this to mean old habits die hard. I don't really see my lifestyle inflating very much at all unless I join an expensive gym (unlikely, have plenty of stuff here) or buy a car. If I move or otherwise change my housing situation that will likely just decrease my expenses as I don't see myself getting into a situation that would cost me more than I'm shelling out now.
I am considering getting a shit social job like waitress or something just to get out of the house one day per week and meet more people. But I can't get excited about it.
OMG if this entry does not scream ISTJ I do not know what does.
I have some Bucket List items; I suppose I'll put them down here.
1) If I am ever single again, I am so buying a Tiny House, with a car that can pull it around on a trailer, and I am going to live in it forever and ever.
2) I have a travel bucket list - I should go to at least one place every year. I should play FF miles/Credit Card games and go for cheap/free. I have about 25 places listed. I have always wanted to drive the full length of the Oregon Coast - I might do that this summer.
3) Lose 20 lbs
4) I need to meet more like-minded people, hopefully with the weather warming up and the days getting longer I will be able to bike to some meetups where I wasn't really willing to bike there before.
5) I watched this Ted Talk recently: (
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FBxfd7D ... 4&index=12) and it made me realize that of the 3 types of happiness I am rolling in the "pleasure" one and severely lacking in "flow" and in "meaning". I'd like to find more flow and meaning.