2020 Recap
It's been a while since I've really written in this journal, which is a bit of a shame, as I always feel good after writing, and feel even better when I get supportive feedback about my life plans. So here goes! A recap of the whole year—the good, the bad, and the ugly.
I started the year by deciding to try out nursing school. I was a pretty smart kid, but my fourth grade teacher used math and science to bully me, so I always avoided hard science, preferring instead to learn foreign languages, read books, and play instruments. A large part of my motivation for trying nursing was to prove to myself that I could do STEM if I wanted to. I dedicated myself to it, and I did well! I loved chemistry and statistics, and later this year even taught myself some calculus for fun! I made huge progress this year in undoing my phobia around math and science, and I am proud of myself for doing so. I've decided not to continue with the nursing, but I still consider this a valuable experience, and don't regret the time I spent there.
In addition to school, I spent valuable time improving my skills in cooking, bicycle repair, composting, and dumpster diving. I am not perfect in any of these areas, but I have made significant progress through self study!
COVID was pretty shitty and chaotic for me. I was just starting to get into a good groove at school—meeting good people, hanging out with professors after class with nerdy questions, etc—when all the classes were moved online and I had to try to teach myself anatomy with my siblings yelling in the background. Not fun. I began burning out as summer started, and had reserved a day in June to go into the woods with a friend and take LSD. I was very intentional and careful, and was mainly looking for insight about whether I should continue with the path I was on.
Now, I was sort of adopted into a Mexican community when I was young, and Latin American culture has been hugely important in my life. During the trip, a presence that I can only accurately describe as "the spirit of Latin America" appeared to me, and essentially told me that I should be working to preserve indigenous languages that are in danger of extinction. Very clear message. I decided to drop out of nursing school and figure out what the hell I was going to do next.
Soon after, I grew sick of home and moved into the attic of an unused building. I lived there for over a month and had a blast! The problem was, however, that even though it was okay with the manager, not the entire board was in agreement with my staying there. As such, I have had to leave, and will be renting an apartment to get me through the winter.
Having to get an apartment is a setback for me. I'm having to go from rent-free living to paying $500 a month. I am hoping to find a better long-term solution, but for now I need to just get through the winter. It's not all bad, though. I have friends close by, and will have a cool roommate that I am excited to get to know better. Also, another friend recently moved to Florida and gifted his car to me and my roommate! We'll be able to use it for some work stuff, which will be quite nice.
2021 Planning
As for 2021 planning, I am operating under the assumption that COVID will be mostly settled down by the summer. Only time will tell, but I think this is realistic. As some of you know, my main ERE dilemma is the dirtbag/career dichotomy. I lean heavily towards the dirtbag side, and as such have decided I will be transitioning to van life!
It's sort of a perfect time for me to get a van. If I spend the winter working and saving money, I will have ample time in the spring and summer for building and preparation. Then, before fall, I could get the hell out of the area! I have a strong dislike of cold winters, and suffer from mild seasonal depression, and I want this to be the last damn Chicago winter I ever experience! One of my anthropological heroes, Wade Davis, agreed to meet with me when I emailed him, so my plan would to be to drive out West to Vancouver, then South through California to meet some friends and go rock climbing. I could spend the winter in Latin America learning how to dance bachata!
I also have established contact with a nonprofit called WikiTongues, an organization that specializes in the preservation of endangered languages across the globe. I am learning more about them so that I can support indigenous language work when I get to Latin America. While I'm fantasizing about my epic journey, I might as well write down my top bucket list items, just to keep myself motivated.
Roaming Francis' Dreams
- Learn an indigenous Latin American language
- Do hardcore meditation practice, both in the West and in Asia
- Nature shit. Learn permaculture, ecology, and wilderness survival.
- Play keyboard and supporting vocals in a bachata or salsa band.
- Learn to dance to aforementioned music
But anywho, I'm getting ahead of myself. I will need to get a driver's license, van, and an increased FU stash before I can embark. I didn't make a lot of money from the roofing this year, but to be fair, I was just getting started with learning, and my dirt-cheap cost of living allowed me to work extremely little. I believe that if I increase my hours at my current gig, I could exponentially increase my income, so it seems worthwhile to give it a shot. I also have some possibilities for side income, including the recycled art and getting stipends from the nonprofit gig.
My departure date could be as early as May or as late as August; it'll depend on how well I do at the job and how quickly I can learn to do a van build. I'll have to play this by ear.
Reflections on Meeting Jacob
I believe I mentioned in another post that I met Jacob at his house in Chicago a little while ago. It was a real treat, though I also realized that Jacob and I are different people in terms of personality, temperament, and desired lifestyle. As such, I would like to make a note to myself that I must use ERE to unleash my
own life, not just copy what Jacob has done. I need to apply the principles to a different context; ERE's flexibility in this sense, in my opinion, is what makes the entire philosophy so brilliant in the first place.
College
At least for now, I am deciding to tell the university system to fuck off. I may go back in the future, if I can find a cheap way to study something that interests me, but for now I'm headed down another path. I do love the social aspect of college, and I love being able to interact with professors that are way more skilled than me in all sorts of subjects, but I have an intuition that my own most realized life lies outside of traditional institutions.