Another post so soon! I've been musing over @c_l's suggestion to build the life I want rather than focus on x amount of money or days left. I've thought about it, despaired over it, and maybe made some progress on it.
I've worked on my web of goals before, but this question helps me suss out more details about my life and what I want to change/build. I've thought about what I do right now that I'd like to do less of: work, clean, aimless internet meandering, procrastination came up to name a few. I've thought about what I want more of right now: gardening, hikes, feeling healthy, birding, engaged time with my son, and satisfaction of building our business were a few I came up with. So it has been helpful to think about the overarching life I want to build. Now, I haven't had that conversation (or conversations) with DH and he's got a big say. I'm not flying solo here. I also think about my son quite a bit. What do I want to give him, expose him to during his childhood.
I'm reading Atomic Habits now. I am enjoying it and getting into the meat of it soon. I've been exercising (beach body, yoga stuff) for a few days in a row. What a difference it makes to my mental health. I'm going to buy a kettle bell soon and get some weight work in for variety. I'm kinder to myself and a better human when I exercise. I had a tough week last week and I got sick of my negative outlook. I decided the simplest fix was to force myself to exercise everyday. I can find 30 minutes a day even with my child, job, husband etc.
My son had a CRAZY, demonic temper tantrum two nights ago. DH had been working in the skoolie and was soaked with sweat when it was time to put our kid to bed. Normally we switch off bath and bed time. This night I did both (total super star I know
) and then had to deal with the demon child. I had done a good workout earlier in the day. He was literally crazy, this is not hyperbole. I've seen that craziness once or twice before and really handled it badly. Lots of shouting and anger from me. This time was different. Thank goodness. But, I really credit the choice to exercise as setting me up for success with him. We got through it and I was really pleased with myself. It was a good feeling. Most of the time he's an easy kid, so it's kinda easy to fool myself that I'm a good parent. It's pretty easy to parent a child who is happy all of the time. It was reassuring that I did handle demon child well. I must be learning.
Last interesting development story. When we went to Montana to pick up the school bus, we got a free mixte Motobecan bike from our buddy. It is all busted up and needs a total overhaul. Obviously it is pretty low on the priority list right now. One of DH's acquaintances is a die hard biker. But for some reason, he has a small motorcycle that needs some work. He asked if DH could work on it. My great idea (so modest I am in this post!) was to see if Dh's buddy would trade work on my mixte bike for motorcycle work. Some more figuring out needs to happen for parts and money spent, but I might have a newish fun bike to ride sometime this summer. I guess we could have taken the money, but this feels better. Also means one less broken bike hanging around the house. DH can get some work on the motorcycle when I'm at work, he can tinker on stuff while our son bangs hammers and kills bugs.
Okay, really the last thing. I accidentally bought a set of flash cards for birds of America. I mean, I wanted them but was going to wait it out for awhile. Anyway, they came and are beautiful and helping me learn birds. The best part of them are the descriptions of bird calls. This is an example from the lark sparrow:
"Song slow and varied, with a choppy rhythm of high rattling phrases and some long trills: zeek puk treeeeeeee chido chido kret-kret-kret-kret trrrrrrrrr. Flight call a high metallic tink."
We were laughing so hard in bed this morning trying to read the calls 'correctly'.