daylen wrote:Interesting. I rarely worry about the possibility of breaking things. Most of what I learned about computers was triggered by things breaking. Do you think you could change your perception to, "breaking things can speed up development, and fixing things decreases anxiety over time"?
So, since we are both XNTPs, your experience kind of confirms my gut that this it is not due to my inherent temperament, unlike my urge to explore the opposite too.
jacob wrote:FWIW, I sometimes^H^H^H^H...increasingly often wonder if there are problems I can no longer solve because I'm no longer naive and foolhardy enough to try
Knowing too much can be a problem wrt creativity.
I grok what you are getting at here, and it is very relevant to some of my hesitancy with my own permaculture project, but that's not the source of this anxiety.
For instance, the feeling I had when I downloaded RStudio was the same feeling that I had when I was 19 and I had to do a practical lab assignment in physics based on car mechanics, and I didn't even have my driver's license yet, because I failed the driving part of the exam twice. It's the same feeling that I had when I had to keep saying "right is tight, left is loose" over and over to myself when I worked on exercise sets in Mechanics 101 (I started out in college as a Mechanical Engineering major.) Kind of like if you had a bad dream where you were driving a fast car and then suddenly all the control mechanisms (brakes, lights, signals) became unfamiliar to you, and because you don't know what to do, you just fling your hands open and away from the the wheel and panel.
Like Mr. Peterson, I believe that gender is not just a social construct, but it's frustrating when you can't demonstrate something that is in your brain in the real world due to, what I will call for lack of a better term, "tool anxiety."
Gilberto de Piento wrote:Are you just trying three separate things to see which you like or is there a curriculum that requires all three of these? They don't seem very connected to me.
The purpose of the introductory IT certificate, which includes the mini-course on systems administration, was supposed to be that it would be like taking an introductory auto mechanics course before re-doing the physics lab which was based on auto mechanics. The other two courses of study are both serving the twin purposes of mid-life brain exercise and meeting my sub-goal of earning approximately $100,000 of income between now and 11/01/2020. Also, obviously, I am attempting to finally get some decent value out of math degree I earned almost 30 years ago, by closing a very long, brier infested, loop on my trail/web system.
BRUTE wrote:would it comfort 7Wannabe5 to know that even professional programmers, with decades of experience each, constantly break stuff? including the systems that manages 7Wannabe5's money, credit score, SSN, medical records, tax info, drones flying around, commercial aircraft, modern cars..
Yes, I do find that personally comforting, although generally frightening. Also, I have already grokked the fragile and ad hoc nature of these systems. That's actually one of the reasons I am determined to move forward in my studies; pretty clear that some people have to do it else f*cking cataclysmic world-wide disaster. Kind of terrifying that I rank myself as absolutely incompetent in the realm, yet I am studying something (best practices in data tidying) that wasn't even outlined until 2014. I can't even come up with an adequate analogy.
