35 and hating latest career change to teaching. Sinking into depression

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usherer
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35 and hating latest career change to teaching. Sinking into depression

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I'm turning 36 actually. Having gone through numerous jobs and having recently completed a two-year Masters of Teaching, I thought life would be stable now. But no.

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I've always liked playing around with words since young. At 15, I banded together with classmates to produce a class newsletter on a regular basis, dealing with lousy teenage ideas. As I tried to figure out my life path between 18 and 23 years old, I did part-time jobs and internships to figure out the exact creative path I would like: marketing communications, public relations, advertising, film and theatre. I was bored by and uncomfortable with the trivial, meaningless pursuits that made up the communications world (marcomms, PR and advertising). My Bachelors was in advertising/PR.

- First job: Editorial assistant at a magazine---dealing with luxury goods.
- Tried searching for anthropology-related jobs, hoping to be one of those success stories who manage to make career switches without the relevant degree
- Subsequent jobs: book editor, wrote for magazines and companies
- Travelled overseas and discovered the nonprofit sector that was near non-existent in my home country. Worked as web editor for NGOs and government agencies
- Went back to home country. Did communications work.
- Landed remote nonprofit contract as web editor. Realised career was going nowhere as all I did was to copy and paste approved statements onto FB and Twitter
- Again hoped for success in a career change without an expensive MA, so I volunteered in a developing country. Got traumatised by work. Decided to go into a healing or creative field.
- Returned to home country to do content marketing work and to think about what I want.
- Did MA of Teaching, which would enable me to teach the age range 0-8, with the plan of going into Primary teaching as childcare work is low-paid and I did not want to be stuck in a room with a small team.
- Pri teaching didn't work out as course focused on early childhood and didn't prepare us well for realities of a classroom (differentiation, lesson plans, teaching in a composite classroom)

I landed a job very quickly - on my convocation day, in fact. Now, I am in a childcare room, right under the gaze of an extremely small team. I get criticised or questioned for everything - whether I should change the nappy or not, why I taught the way I did to the infants, the volume of the sleep music I had on. I really hate how petty it is, yet I also know teaching is about the small things that are huge to children. I have to make split-second decisions on just about everything - what to say to the parent, how to evaluate a child's fall. I have to announce to the room when I go to the toilet (so we can ensure there's enough educators in the room). I'm not given planning time but expected to plan and write observations. I have 1 hr to churn out a newsletter for the parents. I often use my 10min breaks to get things done, and that leaves a 30min lunch break which I often use to work as well. I get home all drained and feeling useless.

I know this had never been my choice in the longterm, and am relying on that to save myself from sinking into depression. But at the moment, I have nothing else on the table. I've gone through 'What's the color of your parachute', all the enneagram and MBTI sites I could find before I did my MA. What can I do now?

I can't even speak of FI yet while I'm still wrestling with a career crisis at 36 yrs old.

I've learnt from the past well enough to start ingesting vitamin B complex and St John's Wort in between meditating now. But those aren't going to be enough.

TLDR: Dislike aggressive environments, consumerism, petty arguments. Like writing, time to think. Not financially stable, can't begin to think of FI. Sliding into depression.

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I think you should leave your job immediately; sounds like it isn't going to get better for you there.

Have you considered doing social media consultancy, alongside professional blogging ? I know a few people who do this, if your interested.

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+1 that you should quit immediately.

There must be better teaching positions around. What happened to your plans of teaching Primary school?

Looking at your past experiences, you seem to be yet another Multipotentialite. We are quite a few in here. Learn to look at it as something positive and a strength and feel alright if you change your occupation to a different field again and again.

I wish you all the best

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If you dont have 6 months of housing and food expenses saved up already, that should be your first order of business. If/once you do, THEN quit immediately.

The first week after you quit, focus on eating well and getting good, quality sleep at night/exercise in the daytime. Meditation too, if you are into that.

Monday of week two after quitting, think about how you would like to spend most days of your life. Then think about some of the least expensive ways to acheive that. If that vision involves doing anything you could get paid for, then figure out how to pursue it. If not, figure out how *little* you would need to fund that lifestyle using either the 3 or 4 percent rule.

http://earlyretirementextreme.com/how-l ... retir.html

You are suffering Ego Depletion on a massive scale. Which is a techy way of saying this job is sucking the life out of you. You will not be able to honestly answer any questions about what you want out of life or whatever until you have completed some version of the steps above.

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Have you always felt depression and dissatisfaction, or is it coming exclusively from your job in teaching?

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Sorry to hear about your situation. It sucks. It was exactly that type of situation that moved to me ERE type habits in the first place. When I finished university with $62.5k debt and a very high stress job. Felt like being stuck in a trap i never wanted to be in again.

+1 to what The Dinosaur said. Have you got an emergency fund? How many weeks of expenditure do you have? In my case I never ended up quitting my job I just trucked on through the intense stress. It was helpful to practice increasingly extreme frugality so I could keep improving finances and reducing dependency on the job. Ultimately I segued into a new job without much fuss - eg 1.5 years later I obtained a new and less stressful job, handed in notice and left (rather than just walked off the job - which I actually almost did a couple of times). Maybe if you dont have the finances to leave then you could try stick it out for a while and try and make it as bearable as possible while looking for some other full or part time income streams to segue into, allowing you the financial means to quit.

Also try to look after yourself and treat yourself to some non financial pleasantries outside of your working hours, eg going walks in nice areas, finding some enjoyable free groups you are into from meetup.com etc. Go see a doctor and see if anything they can do...

Also what country are you in? Is there a support/safety net for people with no jobs?

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It sounds like your coworkers might be part of the problem. Could you try a different company?

Tutoring might be a way to make ends meet while you're between jobs, or it could be an alternative career.

Edit: Also, get treatment for the depression before it gets too deep.
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That work environment is toxic, get out. Try another employer; no reason to change careers just yet since you haven't experienced a decent situation in the current career.

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I don't know what sort of regulatory hoops you would need to jump through in your locale, but based on my own experience I would suggest that you might consider the possibility of opening your own very small childcare business/school/center. It sounds like the micro-management is the problem, not working with the children. When I cared for other children, including my own, in my home, I had complete freedom to structure our day together. Mostly I was caring for toddlers who had single moms attending university or working in a bookstore who trusted me, so I charged very low rate, and did as I pleased. So, it would be like "Time to eat Cheerios while listening to Woody Guthrie children's album." then "Time to load everybody into the red wagon, and backpack and go to the park to chase leaves." then "Time to make volcanoes out of homemade purple play-dough." etc. etc. etc. Definitely not super-lucrative, and took a good deal of energy, but I had almost complete autonomy and ability to self-organize my day.

I substitute teach in a school setting now, but I only do it 2 days/week, and they are so desperate for competent help, I feel free to abandon lesson plan and make origami hopping frogs with 2nd graders or do the Hokey-Pokey with the 4 year old group if that is my druthers. The bureaucracy would drive me mad if I did it full-time.

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Hi all,
Thank you for your replies. By the time I was going to respond, the boards were down for a couple of days, and then I’ve just been working. I wake up at around 6/7am, and after the day is done, I’m usually in bed by 9.30pm and don’t have time or energy to reply.

@chenda – Having been a web editor for non-profits and looking at the way changes happen for issues, I’m not keen about work to do with social media. Social media leads to a certain type of slacktivism, that is, if people can even be readily converted by what they read. Usually, their algorithms lead them to information that reinforce their pre-existing ideas. What does it mean when 2,000 people share a FB post? I have friends who share news about climate change etc tell me that too much freedom of speech is not good. Clearly, what they share and what they believe in enough to take action on are two different things.

In my tech marketing work, I produced supposed ‘thought leadership’ articles for CIOs etc. I find all this work for others very pointless as I honestly do not have their expertise. I’m just the ghostwriter who’s pretending to know a bit when I honestly would never be able to hold down a 15-min conversation about big data (or insert any other topic) with someone who’s got, say, 2 yrs of training in it. I was also burnt out in that agency job, from having to digest information ranging from satellite tech to nonprofit management, and producing a 500-word thought leadership article on topics that take experts 15 years to build an opinion about. Besides, there’s a reason why I didn’t go into engineering, but into writing. If I had that kind of brain, I wouldn’t be scrambling for low-paying copywriting jobs, as opposed to engineering jobs!

I suppose I could find a topic I love and specialise in it. Well, I love many things but am no expert in any. My training till now is in advertising (which I hate) and education (which I graduated from last year; besides, I love studying it but I hate working in it). I have always been reading spiritual topics since young but I'm no expert, can't tell 'prajna' from 'yoga'. (Besides, one shouldn't really expect to charge for teaching spirituality...)

@Eureka – I used to think I’m super smart (lol!) simply cos I am/was able to contribute to diverse conversation topics better than others. I’d watched the speech by the person who coined the term ‘multipotentialite’ right before you wrote your kind comment, and what struck me was that the person appeared to be some kind of expert in what they did (guitar-playing). I know several people around me who are undecided about their lives but they all have achieved some level of expertise in their diverse interests: music, writing, drawing, fitness etc. I feel like a fraudster jack-of-all-trades next to these genuine multipotentialites!
Thanks for your well wishes…

@ThisDinosaur – yes…My mom passed away a year and a bit ago, and I have been having nightmares every night since then. So, about a year ago, my mom fell sick and eventually passed away. At the same time, my partner, who was supposed to join me in a new country, also had his mom falling sick. He cared for her for about a month and then joined me. His mom is now okay.

Now, for over a yr, we have been having nightmares and very poor quality sleep. Initially, we’d thought it was the stress of being together, in a new country. Now, I’m not so sure. Just this week, he woke up sobbing from a terrible nightmare. He's generally a happy-go-lucky guy, and just wants his sleep back. As for myself, I feel very tired and lousy about myself. I make mistakes all the time, am unmotivated.

I do need to recalibrate myself. Can that be done at the same time as making the next plan though…My years of jobhopping, while have brought me life experiences no one else may have had, have set me back considerably in terms of personal expertise and savings.

I do have 6 months of expenses saved up, if I simply don’t repay my father for loaning me money for my MA. The thing is, I’m not liking the ‘country town’ (it’s actually a city) where I am in, and was planning to move, so I don’t want to touch this sum of money. Why I want to move is because I had come to this city for low-cost schooling. And there is a reason why it is low-cost. This is the state with the highest unemployment rate in Australia. My partner wants to stay on for cost-savings, but I believe we can get better-paying jobs and richer opportunities in other states, which will then allow us to accumulate savings faster than trying to content ourselves with sometimes-lousy bosses/jobs. Also, this is a big state where driving is needed, and I don’t see myself getting older here well. If I’m going to be gardening by 80 yrs old, I don’t want to start doing it now. (Lots of young people here content themselves with gardening as there isn’t much else to do. I love gardening and nature, but don’t see the point of missing out on museums, festivals if I can while I still have the physical ability to participate in them. I have a number of older friends (80++ yr olds) here who cannot drive and go elsewhere, and are literally trapped in their own homes.)

@Mowgli – There has always been a niggling feeling throughout most of my life about how something is not meeting my expectations or how I am not realising my potential. The teaching job piles on misery as I am constantly reminded about my mistakes, which far outweighs the compliments on a job welldone or done properly. The only other time this has happened was when I working for a particularly abusive publisher (who used to scream at his staff from across the room).

@thrifty++ - congrats on taking action to gain freedom! I’ll bear your advice in mind: for every dollar I save, it’s a dollar to leaving for a new job without fuss/drama—especially so in Australia where references are much needed.

I used to take on freelance work from my previous company, but they stopped approaching me and I’m also too tired to do it now.

I have indeed went to a doctor who thinks I have carpal tunnel and rheumatoid arthritis. Will get results on Mon.

I’ve liked a particular meditation group I found, and will try to go to it. The sessions are very far for me without a car, and even for a friend who lives in my area and does have transport.
I am in Australia, and have just acquired PR here so I can’t access welfare.

@Gilberto de Piento/@George the original one – yes, I have considered that but… my centre is one of the most highly regarded ones in this city. I have worked in one other childcare centre and from what I see of that one and compared to others my friends have worked in, I think my centre is indeed very good.

They tend to view children as cute objects whereas my centre takes children’s rights seriously. For instance, some educators would ask for consent before taking photos of children. There’s much more respect for children here, whereas other centres believe in pink/blue schemas for children, doing activities around commercial products (like superheroes).

@Gilberto, I will look into the depression treatment. I might be able to get counselling.

@7Wannabe5 – So great to meet another childcare teacher here! You’re spot on that I HATE micromanagement. When I used to freelance or worked in a small team, I had lots of autonomy, so now I feel like a kid being micromanaged. And when I’m being managed in that manner, I make even more mistakes.

It’s so good to hear that you dislike bureaucracy too. I see all these teachers who stick it out and seem to be on top of everything: they know what every child wrote for their last essay, they know what they did for the last maths lesson, and they know who hasn’t paid their excursion fee yet, and I feel like a terrible human being for not being able to do that.

May I ask if your partner is doing well enough that you feel contented to continue with what you call a non-super lucrative/energy-sapping job?

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usherer wrote:
Fri May 05, 2017 10:54 pm
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@Eureka – I used to think I’m super smart (lol!) simply cos I am/was able to contribute to diverse conversation topics better than others. I’d watched the speech by the person who coined the term ‘multipotentialite’ right before you wrote your kind comment, and what struck me was that the person appeared to be some kind of expert in what they did (guitar-playing). I know several people around me who are undecided about their lives but they all have achieved some level of expertise in their diverse interests: music, writing, drawing, fitness etc. I feel like a fraudster jack-of-all-trades next to these genuine multipotentialites!
Thanks for your well wishes…
Impostor Syndrome?

What does it take to be a TRUE multipod? When do you know you've crossed the threshold before you are no longer a fake?
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Edit: as someone who is currently out of the work force due to depression I'll project my life unto to you and pretend I'm an expert now :)
Do something to get out of any toxic situation that feels like what you're currently in before it truly gets to you. I've been away from the workforce for 6 months now and I'm still having issues functioning optimally.

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@FBeyer: That's a great graphic. It made me think of how I can really beat myself up at times, instead of practising the growth mindset and thinking that even if I don't know enough, I can just simply acknowledge the one thing I don't know and continue learning.

What is your depression due to? Last time I had a depression episode, it lasted for a year, and went away when I went to a new country where I was exposed to new ways of living and a new type of job market which worked for me.

One of my major problems is, I don't know about every single job, so I'm using the same keywords to search for jobs: research, edit, when these functions can be subsumed under many, many types of jobs, like , I don't know, "paralegal", "librarian". Instead, since I don't know what I don't know, I'm just using job sites to search for opportunities as editor, copywriter in the hope that some beautiful organisation appears.

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usherer wrote:
Fri May 05, 2017 10:54 pm
I do have 6 months of expenses saved up, if I simply don’t repay my father for loaning me money for my MA. The thing is, I’m not liking the ‘country town’ (it’s actually a city) where I am in, and was planning to move, so I don’t want to touch this sum of money. Why I want to move is because I had come to this city for low-cost schooling. And there is a reason why it is low-cost. This is the state with the highest unemployment rate in Australia. My partner wants to stay on for cost-savings, but I believe we can get better-paying jobs and richer opportunities in other states, which will then allow us to accumulate savings faster than trying to content ourselves with sometimes-lousy bosses/jobs. Also, this is a big state where driving is needed, and I don’t see myself getting older here well. If I’m going to be gardening by 80 yrs old, I don’t want to start doing it now. (Lots of young people here content themselves with gardening as there isn’t much else to do. I love gardening and nature, but don’t see the point of missing out on museums, festivals if I can while I still have the physical ability to participate in them. I have a number of older friends (80++ yr olds) here who cannot drive and go elsewhere, and are literally trapped in their own homes.)
So you must be in South Australia, Adelaide I presume. I would have thought it was a lovely city. I am in NZ and sometimes have pondered exercising my ability to live in Australia. However most of the climate does not appeal and that puts me off, most parts the heat and humidity are so extreme and some parts too hot and too cold (like Melbourne). I would have thought Adelaide was ideal though climate wise? Nice dry summer and warm winter? I tend to forget Adelaide exists as you always hear about Melbourne, Sydney and Brisbane. Thought Adelaide could be an option at some point and being cheap and not too big it seems like a nice option. I havent been to South Australia. Just to the cities along the east coast, but many times.

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Hey thrifty++, I have come to realise that one's decisions are very particular to one's personality and lifegoals. e.g. I have a friend who has been here for over 10 years and is fiercely loyal to Adelaide. He came from a science background, and had to let go of his love for research when funding was withdrawn. When he first graduated, he had already seen for himself how hard it was to get jobs in Adelaide, so by the time he was let go from his research work, he'd already built a business in vending machines. Now he has three properties and his fulltime job is effectively upgrading the value of his real estate. He hopes to have kids.

So, Adelaide has worked out for him because he has never questioned the loss of the ability to work in science. He's not into culture/arts. He's of the mindset that he can obtain all his lifestyle needs from online reading. And I guess he would imagine having a close relationship with his children in future.

On the other hand, I don't plan to have children, so I need a city where I can get more of a buzz. While my friend is happy to work with vending machines (that, in my opinion, promotes unhealthy snacks and drinks)/ real estate, I need jobs with a mission/ allows me to work and learn from others, so to speak. Most of my greatest learnings in life didn't come from online reading, much as I did them. I became passionate about farmers' rights/indigenous rights/refugee rights because of my personal relationships with the groups. I understood spirituality much better when I was living in a likeminded community in a special city. I fell in love with blues and graffiti when I lived in another special city.

So, yes to all your points about Adelaide's weather, but I can't tell you if it's a good city just based on that. There are beaches everywhere, so it's really nice to go for a spin before/after work. But having witnessed what my elderly friends are going through, I realised that if I do live to 80 and beyond, ALL I be doing then is to immerse in nature. People here are fantastic - very trusting and generous with their kindness and time. The few times a stranger has suddenly chatted with me is about some nice, lovely thing. Events here are very small - e.g. there was a 'sand sculpture event featuring international artists' - was happy to pay $10 to enter it...finished the exhibits in 5 mins. If there is a 'twilight market', expect 15 or at most 50 people.

Due to the low-cost lifestyle and lack of options here, it is fantastic for families with children. I believe the most expensive good school is way cheaper than schools in other states. Families tend to indulge in nature play here-- a free option, as I've come to realise! Imagine all the money that can be saved when you can just take your kids to the beach or forest, which is what they'll do as teenagers. And you, as a working adult will be able to indulge in the same free natural resources, with a wine valley drive thrown in. Lots of big acts tend to skip Adelaide on their tours. Went to the Adelaide Fringe Festival this year, and it was quite disappointing. A friend who attended seven acts said she enjoyed about half of them. Adele did come earlier this year though! Neil de Grausse Tyson went to all the other cities except Adelaide.

If you're old, frail and unable to drive, and have good relationships with your kids who would visit you every week, this is a great place too, as you'll be able to have a large place with a nice garden at a low cost. Otherwise, if your kids are interstate or simply don't visit you, you can feel very isolated.

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I have a question, if you want to reach FI why don't you just get the highest paying job you can find?

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usherer wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 1:55 am
What is your depression due to? Last time I had a depression episode, it lasted for a year, and went away when I went to a new country where I was exposed to new ways of living and a new type of job market which worked for me.
...
http://forum.earlyretirementextreme.com ... 31#p133031

In short: overthinking and overanalyzing an unappreciated and overworked job situation.

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James_0011 wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 10:06 am
I have a question, if you want to reach FI why don't you just get the highest paying job you can find?
Because a high paying job will often wear your soul down faster than it will fill your wallet.

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FBeyer wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 12:02 pm
Because a high paying job will often wear your soul down faster than it will fill your wallet.
I'm living this.
thrifty++ wrote:
Sun Apr 23, 2017 2:19 pm
I just trucked on through the intense stress. It was helpful to practice increasingly extreme frugality so I could keep improving finances and reducing dependency on the job.
And this. When I have a bad day, I compulsively start thinking of ways to either save more or earn a higher investment return.
usherer wrote:
Fri May 05, 2017 10:54 pm
I feel like a fraudster jack-of-all-trades next to these genuine multipotentialites!
Have you read any Tim Ferriss? His whole deal is applying the Pareto Principle to learning new skills and fields. Its analogous to Charlie Munger's suggestion to learn the 'Big Ideas' of every field to get a robust understanding of how the whole world works. The problem of applying this to making a living is that you constantly find yourself surrounded by people who've spent more time on the subject than you.

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Dear all,
Thanks for the replies. I've been offline for a while as I had friends visiting. That brought some cheer for a while, especially since I took two days off work!
FBeyer wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 12:01 pm
usherer wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 1:55 am
What is your depression due to? Last time I had a depression episode, it lasted for a year, and went away when I went to a new country where I was exposed to new ways of living and a new type of job market which worked for me.
...
http://forum.earlyretirementextreme.com ... 31#p133031

In short: overthinking and overanalyzing an unappreciated and overworked job situation.
hey FBeyer, fascinating post over there. You shared that you were unable to keep up with things but at the same time, your checklists of what you have been doing, what happened, how they made you feel, and your decisions for self-improvement show just how in control you were of your own state! What was indeed beyond your control were the circumstances surrounding you - tragedy in the family, health issues, parenting issues, and work issues. You sounded a bit hard on yourself to sum up the situation as you being "inefficient in work and envious" (and here, you said you were "overthinking and overanalysing an unappreciated and overworked job situation" when you had so many things going on).

Hope you have been showing yourself more compassion. How are things now?

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FBeyer wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 12:02 pm
James_0011 wrote:
Sat May 06, 2017 10:06 am
I have a question, if you want to reach FI why don't you just get the highest paying job you can find?
Because a high paying job will often wear your soul down faster than it will fill your wallet.
Exactly... I really wish I love money, or maybe I'm not wishing hard enough. But the minute I'm tasked to write some blog piece about an MNC donating a sum of $XXXX over the next ten years to refugee children, the first thing I would do is to search for the CEO's previous year bonus (and yes, it was more than the donation). I think I'm quite subversive in the workplace.

At the same time, I'm really sick of being frugal and sticking by my ideals.

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