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by ellarose24
Sun Sep 01, 2019 11:58 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

Things have been in upheaval. Fall is always a time of change for me. A shedding. Mark and I bought this house 1 month ago. I will be moving out and living with two other female roommates far away. Mark is a symbol of security for me. This forum is a symbol of security. They are obsessions with stab...
by ellarose24
Wed Jul 10, 2019 5:45 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

I had to go to the emergency room. My medicine had built up to a toxic level in my system and I was having trouble breathing, walking, well pretty much doing anything. It was about a week ramp up period where I felt worse and worse. I began to spend more money during this time--on food. My boyfriend...
by ellarose24
Sat Jun 29, 2019 7:41 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

Hi Bigato, I did much worse than these graphs show. I did not link the two 0% interests credit cards with 10k debt on them (combined)--they are what I took a loan from my 401k to pay off before the APR kicked in. But, looking back, I ended up at about the same place and it could have been much worse...
by ellarose24
Fri Jun 28, 2019 5:50 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

I'm using mint again. It's not really accurate as I didn't use it the past two years but I found it interesting. Below is my net worth since I started tracking it. My mania hit around May of 2017 and lasted until Jan of 2018 and then was in and out the rest of 2018 with extreme depression. Before Ma...
by ellarose24
Fri Jun 21, 2019 8:27 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

Hi Bigato, that's nice to hear--my journals are mostly stream of conscious and I wonder if they're even comprehensible most of the time. I'm unfortunately out of PTO. I had to go home for a week and a half when my mother was psychotic. I do go on hikes here and plan on doing some weekend trips. I've...
by ellarose24
Fri Jun 21, 2019 4:57 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

I have a terrible problem with impulses. I wanted to back out of buying the house. The mountains were calling me and I was devastated. But I have set my goals and I'm sticking to them. I never stick to my goals. I go from one wild impulse to the other. My goal is to live in this house for two years ...
by ellarose24
Tue Jun 11, 2019 6:52 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

If the job only makes you "stuck" for a year and a half, why buy a house that will only make it harder to move?! Delurking to wish you well.It sounds like you are pulling yourself in too many directions, at least mentally. I've been wondering that as well. It was an impulse, like most of my life de...
by ellarose24
Tue Jun 11, 2019 4:48 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

It seems only a couple of week ago I was looking forwards to the joys of simple domesticity. Now that yearning has taken over my soul again. I made a mistake of watching Ken Burn's National Parks and then reading a biography of John Muir. There is a wild part of me that wants to say hell with money ...
by ellarose24
Fri Jun 07, 2019 6:17 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

I did not realize this, but apparently when buying a house, if you offer above the appraisal you have to make up the difference in cash. The house was listed at 190, we offered 205. There was a chance we were going to have to pay an additional $15k. But we got the appraisal back today--$205K!!!!!!!!...
by ellarose24
Fri Jun 07, 2019 5:51 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Fox's Journey: And Onto the Sunlight!
Replies: 913
Views: 142730

Re: Fox's Journey: And Onto the Sunlight!

Hi TopHat. You posted on my journal so I'll post on yours. You're right--I see a lot of similarities between the two of us. I too was extremely idealistic as a college grad and eventually had it beat out of me. I have made a lot of impulsive decisions. There is a lot to be said with "sticking" with ...
by ellarose24
Thu Jun 06, 2019 7:39 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

Hello there, Ella. I sense a lot of anxiety from the tone of this last post. I'd like to suggest you if I may, to calm down a little. Do not try to rush it. Do not skimp on healthy. Keep a quality of life good enough at least. Yeah, tackle your exepenses if you feel like it now, but do not go faste...
by ellarose24
Thu Jun 06, 2019 7:31 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

I'm not sure what your car's make/model/location are, but $100/mo for car insurance seems high to me. Does the car loan require a certain minimum level of coverage? Contrary to that, $100/mo on food seems low. That's around $3/day, so eating out just once can equal a whole week of food spending. It...
by ellarose24
Wed Jun 05, 2019 5:39 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

https://i.imgur.com/wkEJZrP.png Well, I finally sat down and came up with a budget/plan. Some big things that are missing out are things like car repair, unexpected expenses. I guess this is my stretch goal, hoping everything goes perfectly. It's at least something to aspire to. I gave myself $1000...
by ellarose24
Wed Jun 05, 2019 8:03 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

I forgot about two expenses: Meds-60 dollars a month Psychiatric/Psychologist (he is both) visit once a week at $35 a session--that $140 month Damn, that's below $1000 that I have left over. I guess I haven't really looked into this as detailed as I thought. I think part of my "emergency savings" wi...
by ellarose24
Tue Jun 04, 2019 9:27 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

You remind me of me in many ways. Not in bipolar, but in taking ERE as a middle ground and having a very difficult time doing so emotionally. I dunno, it is really affirming to see another person that openly struggles a lot, but is trying to move forward anyway as best they can. As far as mental il...
by ellarose24
Tue Jun 04, 2019 7:40 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

My boyfriend and I are in the process of buying a house.The amount of Californians moving to Texas might make it more like CO eventually in terms of cost of living. A financial firm across the street is bringing in 7k people from California so I felt now was the time. Who knows, I could be wrong, bu...
by ellarose24
Wed May 08, 2019 4:05 pm
Forum: Inspiration
Topic: Life Philosophy
Replies: 8
Views: 2199

Re: Life Philosophy

I read so many fantasy books as a child. When I was older, I studied medieval literature. Something that always comes back to me about these books (Augstus, you will remember this from Lord of the Rings--Tolkien was also a student of medieval literature) were the feasts. Usually after some momentous...
by ellarose24
Wed May 08, 2019 11:20 am
Forum: Lifestyle Questions
Topic: If the "right thing to do" is to not have kids, who do you think IS having kids?
Replies: 82
Views: 9639

Re: If the "right thing to do" is to not have kids, who do you think IS having kids?

Eventually the world will correct itself. I firmly believe that. Humans are overpopulated and like any animal there will be a culling of the herd. That sounds awful, but I think all of the things we are worried about in the future are simply going to be nature's way of correcting the problem of huma...
by ellarose24
Wed May 08, 2019 11:05 am
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

Not much has changed as far as my spending goes. It has been storming here frequently. The tornado warnings and booming thunder give me some sense of nostalgia for climbing mountains. I am missing the terror of the rockies. I did not think those mountains would impact me so much, but nature in gener...
by ellarose24
Tue Apr 23, 2019 6:45 pm
Forum: ERE Journals
Topic: Ella's Journal
Replies: 64
Views: 10123

Re: Ella's Journal

@prognastat--I think I could do it, honestly. I think I would be good at it. It's just getting there--all of the politics at play. Image is HUGE, I mean it is a Really. Big. Deal. And that in itself would require a lot of start-up capital (Clothing, name brand purses, fancy hair cuts...etc.) And the...